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2011-02-16T20:59:00.003+08:00

Hello blogger!

i havent blog for long! and oh well, i guess i'm feeling down now , and wanna blog bout it?

I wish to live in fairy tale...

full of bliss and no unhappiness..

i wanna go far far from the place i'm living now.. perhaps, Narnia?

i wanna live in castle, wear gowns everyday.

dine in ballroom with dance afterwards.

or just a simple life near the water,..

wait, i want a private island.

only he and i have access to it.

fish for dinner, if not order mac via helicopter. <3

sleep under the stars if i wish to,

i...just, well, i just want to have a world, for us alone..

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

VOTE FOR ME!! xD

2010-12-14T11:05:00.003+08:00

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20-10-2010

2010-10-20T18:14:00.000+08:00

Dear BLogger,,

i think i still like elly, wat should i do now?

can i say i hate tumblr?

2010-10-16T02:14:00.005+08:00

okay. im gonna blog here for now.. wait, i dun reali blog nowaday.
anyway, im pissed! freaking pissed! i had this uber long post in tumblr, which i wrote on 10-10-10
it DISAPPEARED!!! OMG!
well, appearantly, the post, of course, was about elly. duh! if not would i be so affected?
goodness! out of all the posts, why must 10-10-10 post get lost for no good reason?!

---xxx---

" do u go clubbing?" he asked me when my teacher was behind me.. HELLO!? i repeat my teacher was behind me..
oh well, those were the moments.
he's not interested in r/s anyway right?
i hope to see him at this dunno wat yog appreciation tea party..
i asked him bout this today, but i guess i texted him at wrong time, he was busy having fun at sentosa? well, just my luck.
or , perhaps, he really doesnt wanna talk to me at all, maybe because he alr found out tat i like him?
this kinda one sided thing sucks.
i mean, why am i so stupid anyway?

he's always on my mind..
when i met sai and his fren the other day, i found out sth,,
i guess i'll blog about it soon.. =)

M_K ™

10/10/10

2010-10-10T13:17:00.005+08:00

Ay-oh!

long time since i last posted..
anyways,
haha.. i dunno wat to write.. uhm,
today is 10/10/10
wow. times fly so fast! today is also carl's birthday, as well as this primary sch friend named Siyu? i kinda forgot his name.. haha...not my fault, who asked him not to come sch already at primary six.
let's talk about my love life...
aw, it rocks and sucks somtimes..
i wish, i can get everything i want,
oh no! tmr got bio paper
honestly, i havent study and revise yet
err.. forget everything about alimentry canal..blah blah
damn!
gonna mug now! byebye!
oh wait, i like elly.... elly is awesome, everything abt elly is so so perfect.. haiz..if only i could be with elly... somebody help me pls, i'm lovesick now.. ='( sobs.

M_K

2010-04-04T00:30:00.003+08:00

"i realise i appreciate you more when you're not around"

when our eyes met on friday,
i remember the good things you've done for me...
i was always angry with you... always thinking you're not good enough..
was i too much? was in the wrong to ask you to treat me better?
well... everything is too late to turn back now...
i'm sorry about your results...
work hard, you still got like 6 more mths.
i called your house at night, i heard you're out with your friends from your dad.
this make me sad, i dunno why. i guess i get hurt easily, well...why couldnt you go out with me yet you could go out with your friends? i find this ridiculous..
haiz. all over now.

there's no way to turn things back.
my decisons on the impulse, should i regert or should i not?
be adamant with my decisons and be strong?
tell myself dont regret, because girl you deserve so much better?

M_K ™

2010-03-31T20:52:00.002+08:00

Hey my blog readers!

it's been ages since i last blog.

haha. two mths and a week.

things aint going well.

cant cope with my studies.

and oh, Marcus is awesome...

i mean, he was .

but nowadays, we have quarrels...

and he just asked me to listen to this song by Lifehouse.

the lyrics are kinda nice, so i decided to post it here.

A strangled smile fell from your face

It kills me that I hurt you this way

The worst part is that I didn't even know

Now there's a million reasons for you to go

But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

Believe that I can change

I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work

You gotta let me inside even though it hurts

Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see.

She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be

You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takesTo turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

And give me a break

I'll keep us together,

I know you deserve much better

But remember the time

I told you the way that I felt

That I'd be lost without you and never find myself

Let's hold onto each other above everything else

Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stakeI know I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

And believe that I can change

I'll keep us together whatever it takes

M_K ™

2010-01-24T15:19:00.001+08:00

I'M SORRY...

M_K ™

sorry...

2010-01-09T22:14:00.005+08:00

omg...
why am i so busy!!??
gosh...
looking back at last year nov and dec, i was freaking busy...
my sincere apologies to all my friends.
haiz... i'm really sorry that i dont have so much time for you guys.
whenever your ask me out, i've got sth on.
i mean, it was my mistake to give dyl the first priority and be a fool.
i'm sorry k? forgive me alright?

to dyl: how much fun have i missed just because i booked tat whole day for ya? in the end, at the last min, you would always tell me you cant go out with me huh? giving me a lot of excuses? the best example would be 2nd Jan?

hey guys, i'm really sorry k? from now on, i'll manage my time properly.
haiz... but sometimes i also you guys to understand tat i'm really busy, and i cant possibly spend my time going out everyday.
let me see wat was keeping me busy in the holidays.
on nov 13th, i had performance (Singapore International Salsa Festival)
the next week i was busy with work and stuff for gala dinner

-- oct 2009 - 13th nov 2009 (SISF)
14th nov 2009 - 20th nov 2009 (gala dinner)
22nd nov 2009 - 28th nov 2009
29th nov 2009 - 5th dec 2009 (help kelston, stay out at night)
6th dec 2009 - 12th dec 2009
13th dec 2009 - 19th dec 2009
20th dec 2009- 26th dec 2009 (christmas preparation and shoppings)
27th dec 2009 - 2nd jan 2010 (no mood to do anything due to loss of w995, homework and prepare for school)

rawr...
yes, i was working... tat explains why i'm not available whenever your ask me out.

to wei ren, tommy, yu sheng, edward, hwei min and the rest
i'm sorry i didnt go for
Karaoke on 31st dec
Palau Ubin trip on 2nd Jan
Sentosa on 9th Jan

on the other hand, it's true tat sometimes i'm really very lazy... which results in me having to rush to places cox i dun have enough time as i woke up very late.
haiz...
i wish i can wake up early...
omg.. i really neglected a lot of frenz..
i really feel bad la guys.
and to top them all, there were a lot of misunderstandings thanks to "gossips"
well, i wont say gossips la, just that when the words spread around, different ppl put the words differently, and the ppl got the wrong message ,
this is damn annoying , you know?
FISH!
like tat night, kelston telling me about her and adelric..
wat the fuck? cant he just mind his own business..
talking about kelston, haiz...
just because of misunderstandings, how many friends have i lost?
just because i was busy, how many friends are upset with me?

i'm really sorry for everything, ok? but wat can i do? it's not entirely my fault..
i lost my phones... i need to work to buy the phone back, right?
my parents are really pissed with me because i lost my phones (again and again),,, k?

seriously la,, i hate last year dec hols to the max man!
a lot of things happened.
i was too stressed out... too busy... alot of things on my mind...
i keep on losing phones and sim cards...
haiz... how many time have i changed numbers?
sorry...sorry...sorry... for all the inconvience caused...
why is it tat whenever i try to do sth good, sth bad will happen to me?
u see, i lost two of my phones when i volunteered my time to perform in SISF...
i lost my W995 which i've only use for 1 and 1/2 mth , when i volunteered my time for x'mas play...
haiz...

Jesus! i'm only 15 yr old...
so stressed...
guys... u knw, i was so busy tat i didnt even have time for drum?
and and and ,,,there was some freaking misunderstanding between me and carlyn?
which i dun even know wat is it? just that she stops talking to me?
i'm sorry about the other day la.. (thursday - 7th Jan)
i met you at the PA there, i could only say "Hi" , i didnt have time to talk to you...
i was busy with sec 1 orientation. i needed to teach the 1e2 girls the dance routine for the finale performance...
rawr! is it my fault tat i'm very busy?
oh god,,, it's been ages since i met Gail..
now's best! i even lost contact with her!
it's lyk, i lost contact with everyone can?
i thought things are getting better ...but i was wrong, i lost my W995 on christmas eve..
christmas eve leh...
wat rotten luck!

to carlyn: rawr... i really forget wat happened tat time tat u dun even wanna tok to me now..
wth? i heard some things from pris... haiz..
not my fault, right? tat day i just needed some alone time...and i was BUSY!
when u keep on "spamming" me messages, i was getting ready to go out..
which means, mascara, eye shadow, eye liner, my eyebrow. and my sister wasnt at home tat day
you know how chaotic it was!? oh yes, i rmbr, my housephone kept on ringing..while i'm trying to settle my eye liner.. i was using liquid eyeliner , so it was kinda messy... and that's was partly why i didnt reply most of your messges., and i guess, ur mad with me? haiz.. i dunno la...i also somewhat forget wat happen alr... old liao mah, memory not good.

and i always make a mess with my contacts cause i was having finger nails,
when i wear my contacts, i feel tat sth is in my eyes, so i try to take out. when i take out, cox of my long finger nails, (and partly cox i'm careless), i tore the contact lens..
haiz..
irritating u knw?
then...with the kind of temper that i have,.. can u imagine i've to settle this kind of stuff while i'm rushing and alr late for sth? man!

and oh, dyl's mum find out about us.. haha...
tat's another irritating thing.
omg
my hols were crazy, chaotic, fun, awesome, sad, depressing, anger, jealousy, misunderstanding, mixed feelings, irritating, agitations,
OMG OMG...

i was sick on tuesday... i wasnt really well yet, but i drag myself to sch cox of sec 1 orientation, and today i was sick again. DAMN! i havent return the x'mas play costumes yet.. haiz.

k, enough.
i need to go sleep asap, in case i cant wake up for mass tomorrow, which would screw up more things.
to all my friends, i'm really sorry...
i'll try to make more time for you guys...
and sorry about my bad temper and misunderstandings.

M_K ™

2010-01-01T05:18:00.004+08:00

HEll0 humans!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

long time no post...heehee...
lately my life was very messed up, really had no mood to post.
now's 5.19am , 01/01/2010
i've nt sleep yet. haha... reached home around 3.30am? LOL

haha..suddenly feel like blogging while dancing..
omg..i'm perspiring like mad!
i was listening to omega songs and started dancing.
i should be sleeping but haiz... some things happened..
RAWR!!

school gonna start soon!

ytd, 31st dec 2009, aft talking to dyl's mum, i was reflecting about the whole year...
well... i really should thank all my friends who have been there for me...
thank you guys! thanks for straightening my thoughts..
thank you so much for comforting me...
thank you so much for lending me a listening ear...
i've very bad temper, i really appreciate you guys for putting up with my nonsenses...
thank you so much for helping me with my homework, tests and exams at the very last min...
thank you so much for being there for me when i thought i've lost everything...
there's a lot more to thank la,
=)
a friend in need is a friend indeed.

M_K ™

I'm sorry

2009-12-08T02:19:00.003+08:00

Heyy… i think it would have been better if I went home right after my performance.
How I wish you didn’t see me on my way to class chalet and I shouldn’t have stay out on 13th Nov.
I guess it’s all my fault? I shouldn’t have gone for the chalet since it was too late at night…
And should have gone home after my dance…
We were very close for a week?
But I don’t know what happen after the gala dinner…
Things started to change.
Well… you had your IT show. Tat’s why u were busy was what you told me.
13th nov was the day I started to fall for you…
Truth or dare…
“I dun mind kissing the person on my right la”
Bowling…
My cat eyes…
And cigg…
14th nov..
The first time…

Seriously, I miss those days…
Those nights tat I’ll look for you…and using “wanting to smoke” as an excuse.
And the day before the gala dinner…
You didn’t go out for dinner with your family because I was at your place…
I did like you…honestly…
I’m really sorry that I kept asking you not to like me…
What choices did I have then?
My best friend was so obsessed with you?

Thank you for spending time with me…
Thank you for accompanying me in the library…when I really needed some sleep…
You were great…

19th nov
Biggest mistake
I got carried away…
I’m still asking myself why I did tat…
I was so crazy, right?
Starting from tat night, u started to treat me differently…

Anyway, I'm really sorry about EVERYTHING.I'm also sorry for the things I may not have done, all right?

Haiz... I just wish you would still talk to me
Those days, I really miss them…
Talk to me soon, ya?
I wish we can still be friends?
Don’t forget your ring is still with me…

M_K ™

2009-11-28T18:17:00.002+08:00

uhm...
i dont know what to type..
RAWR!!!
i didnt blog for a month!

life 've been crappy huh?
everything not going right...

Dylan : i think i'm better without you...
i would be happier, dont you think?...just like when you were in UK.
for at least a week, i wasnt sad. i didnt cry...
i guess i've had enough of you puttin me down...
those girls are better than me in everything , right?
prettier, hotter, smarter...
i'm askin u to move on.
oh yes, u taught me this, remember?
i wanna be a happy kid, u knw?

grrr.... dun wanna write anymore liao..
bye...

M_K ™

2009-10-28T22:37:00.001+08:00

i feel so down...
i;m sori.,, as much as i wan to agree , i cant
baby, pls understand
i'm scared to get hurt again...

M_K ™

2009-10-27T12:18:00.003+08:00

my blog was dead for long..
let me update it with this short post...

waiting for tat day to come is like enternity...
so imma tellin u, i'm giving up
i'm sorri, i knw dis isnt like me,
maria nvr give up
but now she is
sorri...
please accept the fact we're through...

M_K ™

2009-10-18T21:09:00.002+08:00

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

tat computer disease is kiling me man!!
damn,,,
i hope my sister exams faster over soon,,, then can get new com..
dang!!

---xxx---

will be posting so much and upload lots and lots of pic when my comp is back to normal.. =)
but for now.... damn it!

M_K ™

2009-10-15T12:08:00.002+08:00

Reasons why I'm not blogging often...

- lazy

- my com is abit crazy now aday...

(must be the disease from crazy carlyn)

=)

sianz..

M_K ™

2009-10-14T00:30:00.004+08:00

fish it...
eng, sci, math, hist b3, geog a2, only lit n D&t a1..
haiz..
results sucks...
didnt even get a1 for geog..haiz..

and some idiots dun understnd this and keep on pestering me wat..
fish off all of you...
i dun need to report to you wateva i do, right?

---xxx---

got fly at JustAcia..
omg
may be that's why i feel unwell after eating there..
geee...

M_K ™

2009-10-11T21:05:00.005+08:00

Hellos...=)

I haven’t been posting for long...
9days to be exact…
Papers were pretty hard… DUH!
My dreams were shattered thanks to him.
Well, what to do, what’s done is done… you can’t rewind back and change things for the better…
I painted my fingernails blue on Friday, cox I was feeling blue…
---xxx---
Thursday - Fame
Friday - 500 days of summer....
Saturday – Surrogates
---xxx---

Lols...

Ralph, I tried ur cooking, it wasn’t so nice as u advertised... and thanks for everything....
Remember ah, you plus my kor, can turn the whole block up side down.
You know, when u cook, u’ve to put ur love into the cooking? Lols.... is there such a phrase like tat?

Carlyn, please make up ur mind.... I’m sure you know what I am talking about.

Dion, chill man! Think it through and settle face to face....

Desmond, I’m waiting for ur French roll....or what so ever....
And u’re gonna teach me how to fight....
Muah ha ha ha ha....
Next time I will own you in the wateva battling game we played today.... =)
You just wait.... =)

Leon, YOU!!! Please stay away from her for the time being?

Unknown, I’m afraid to say darling, but I guess your blog will be spammed again....
because we freaking don’t like your attitude....

Dylan, DO WHATEVER YOU WANT!!!....
Well, starting from today, 11/10/09, I guess all I could say is, “I couldn’t care less”

Damien, I still couldn’t access your blog....

To those people who've been copying my ™, suckers!! copy cats!! haha. =P

To my IPW group members, we shall have lunch on Tuesday, if there's no CCA?
okay?
my treat...but the bill is more than 50bucks, you guys shall share and pay...
hahaha

---xxx---

Well, since I’ve not been blogging for very long, I’m like kinda lazy to blog now...
Haha....

M_K ™

2009-10-02T18:01:00.005+08:00

02/10/2009

history paper was pretty easy?
lolx...but again, source base will kill me again, i guess?
well...haiz...

omg omg...carlyn is liking "one time" too...
i told ya, it's NICE...
and thanks for explaining to me about the Radio system...haha...=)

ate at burger king...after hist paper, wat did i eat? dunno wat pie and tarlo.
ytd we had our branch?(lunch+breakfast) at kfc,
omg, i eat very slow huh? sorriew
bryan is still so immature. =P
carlyn is crazy...
and yan han is in his own world.

---xxx---

hmmm... time for some pictureS?
heh, picture paints a thousand words. =)

.........
.........
.........
On friday...

the dog shaped ballon tat my sis got for children's day...
she gave it to me...
so i wrote down some names and draw some stuff.

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.........

On wednesday...

i saw ting xuan, jin lin and jing feng but didnt meet priscilla, carlyn and her baby...
ting xuan told me carlyn and priscilla were near by...
well, i didnt want to look them up cox dion was there.
i wanted carlyn and dion to spend time together without me being the "light bulb"
haha... the day was alrdy so bright, i assumed u guys didnt need me there... hee...

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.........

On sunday...

the dress is nice...

i wish i can smile forever...

without sadness...

M_K ™

2009-10-02T14:23:00.001+08:00

i spent two hours...just to edit my blog,,,
i'm starting to understand the codes..

haha

div,
br

http://html-color-codes.info/

lols

dar's birthday in 3 days' time..
=)

M_K ™

2009-09-30T13:22:00.002+08:00

ENOUGH!
i've had it enough!!!
from now on, i wont be kind and nice anymore??
ppl trying to be nice , u know?
when i call u, i talk to you with my calmest vioce even when i'm getting agitated...
but u have to go overboard huh?
i've my own limit, k?
tat's it...
you've reached it...
fuck u...

---xxx---

hah... i seriously got some big problem...
dang...
everyday cannot wake up early,,,
but today , when i dun haf to go to sch for morning duty,
i woke up very early...
omg...
i went to sch early in the morning ,,, reached there at 6.46am...
(when i haf duty, i'll reach sch at 7.15am) wtf, ryte?
i tot i wnt see any of my frenz, cox it's still too early... they're only suppose to b in sch by 8.25am anyway...
but...saw alot ...while waiting for prabu to reach...haha...
and i met jennifer on my way back home...
omg... she dun recgonise me? lawls..
haha, i dun blame her... that was the first time she saw me in my home clothes..
then she was lyk, " OMG! super cute! " wth..
haha

M_K

2009-09-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

omg,..
if i met my dar...and take bus 17, i wuldnt meet wei chang on bus 385..
haha..
so was it a good thing or bad thing ? lawls..
he's still so immature as ever..
yeah...
so chatty? may be cox we havent see each other for very long?
he pinched my cheek... ouch.. jennifer piching my cheek is bad enough...
grrr...

M_K ™

2009-09-28T13:09:00.002+08:00

Geog?
fuck it,...
from 80 marks, 22 marks can minus off alrdy...
haiz...
and tmr maths paper 2, die more la..
grrr..

---xxx---
heh,

M_K ™

2009-09-25T13:54:00.002+08:00

i didnt play soccer for some reason...
dun dare? cox of sth? lols..
i dun noe the exact reason..
no la, it's i dun wanna post here... only my dar knows why. =)
grrr,,,

exams start next mon...

and i missed someone's b'day?
i just found out when i viewed his wall just now..
but ,,, who cares!?
right?

uh, dun wan write liao.
lazy...

M_K ™

2009-09-22T18:04:00.000+08:00

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˙˙˙n ʞɔnɟ˙˙ƃuıɥʇʎɹǝʌǝ ɟo ǝsnɐɔ ǝɥʇ s,ǝɥsǝɹoɔ ƃuıʞɔnɟ ǝɥʇ oʇ˙˙˙ɹǝɥ ǝʇɐɥ ı¡¡ʞɔns˙˙sʞɔns ƃuıɥʇɹǝʌǝʎɐs oʇ ʇɐʍ ounp ı ˙˙zıɐɥ

2009-09-19T10:22:00.003+08:00

omg...
ytd was damn FUN
carlyn u should haf played soccer...
haha
dacy and another senior were super good ...haha
but anyway, i scored a goal , okay?
even though joelle said i'm the suckiest soccer player? wth...
i had a pretty good evening too? LOL...

and and i set my blog to mature content...cox of wat damien say.. haha
*wink*

M_K ™

2009-09-18T21:07:00.004+08:00

grrrrr.........

popular huh? dun be jealous!

*winK*

M_K ™

2009-09-17T13:27:00.002+08:00

before you read, let me tell you this...
i wrote this letter during english lesson,
at first i wanted to write some nice things ( i started out nice and sweet) ...but turn out, all the things you've hurt me come to my mind...

Hey darling, do you know how much i've missed you?
if only you miss me too...hahaz...

You know something? You're evil...
x you never treasure me
x you treat me as crap
x i mean nothing to you
x you dont miss me at all
x think about when was the last time you msg me "i miss you" ???
x you always ignore me
x you reply others' msgs, but never mine
x i was never your first priority
x you care more about other girls
x you dun care about me at all
x and you owe me 3 presents
x you were never faithful
x you played me
x you always blame me
x you alwyas scold me and turn my mood upside down
x all you think about is horny stuffs
x you always have no time for me
x you always give empty promises
x you think watever you do is always right
x you think watever others do is always right
x you think watever i do is always wrong
x you always misunderstood me
x you always treat me very badly
x I'm always last in your list
x and you prefer other girl than me?
x you dun seem to have interest in watever i do
x you are a BIG FAT liar
x you always give excuses
x you always cancell things at the very last minute
x whatever i do is wrong in your eyes
x whatever i say is bitter in your ears
x you cant be bothered with me

UGH! TO CUT SHORT, YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ME AT ALL!

you knw dyl, u oways blame me, then wat abt wateva ur beloved bitch had done? if nt for her, i wont be losin my mind n i cn study n confirm ace all my subjects, ryte?
look at wat she'd done, n u arent even angry a bit. wen i do sth wrong, juz a small little thing, u get unhappy, angry n start scolding me and shout at me... is this fair? ans me, aites?
or u jux luv her so much? bt u dun luv me anymre?
i told u times n times again, "DONT LIE"...
lying to me tat u luv me hurts me mre than tellin me straight in my face, "Maria, i dun luv u anymre". and i'm sure i've repeated myself over and over again and begged u nt to lie, cux eventually i will find out...
baby u knw me, i found out on d spot u were lyin to me tat u went cyclin bt u were at .... u knw wat u'd done... u dun nid me to repeat myself again, do u?

To my
~
(( . . ))
() @ ()
OINK OINK! ^^

(copied from Kerrell's blog) =D

M_K ™

2009-09-15T14:33:00.003+08:00

fuck u ..
fuck off bitch
as long as u're in this world, there'll be lots of trouble..
i want u get out of our lives...
i nvr wanna see u or hear about u...

FUCK OFFF!!!

u realli got nth better to do , is it?
so free uh?
i wish u die soon...

M_K ™

2009-09-15T14:25:00.002+08:00

lalala...
x0x0

in skul...in library...
using this stupid com,...haha
dunno wat to post...
i guess i'm nt gnna use com tonight?
need to study ..haha
fuck..

KC ™ say, "hi, i'm here" ... "Hasan, dun think abt it.." =P

M_K ™

2009-09-14T16:21:00.001+08:00

omg....
NOOOOO!!!!!!!!

may be i;'m jus jealous...
grrr...
hazel said my sister is pretty!!
grrr... wat about me??
no la,, jk...
=P

hey hey you you!
today very sad sial..
why that bus 12 haf to come..
i was hoping ...they wont take bus 12...
but .... NOOOOOOOO
when i was still at the traffic light, i saw them getting on the bus..
but i also saw meng li la..
but but.... why???
i wanna shout their name and say hi?
but, i forget their name... =(
sori lor, malay names are hard to remember.. bleah...

---xxx---

exams in 13 days' time?
right... I"m freaking out!!!!!!!!!!!!
why the school so late tell us?? and why is our exams so early?
grrr... no fair...
meng li's sch only start exams at mid oct?
they got one mth to prepare and they alrdy know when their exams are..
it's lyk...TOOT!

M_K ™

2009-09-13T14:57:00.004+08:00

baby, i miss you...

M_K ™

2009-09-12T22:25:00.004+08:00

I've had it...
Seriously... i've had enuf of u playin wif my feelins..
Sorry abt the slap...
i didnt mean to...

12/09/09

9 mths i've been together with u...

12/09/09

is the day we break...

xxx

baby i want u to read this even though i said i dun love you anymore...

Fall - Ina

I gave you all you desired
All that you needed
Boy, I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that’s a privilege
I had your back at the answers
You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended, battled and fought
Cuz I really thought you loved me
I don’t know where to start or where to stop
No, but I know I am done
I’ve had enough

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

You said that you were the strong one
I was the girl
And I was the young one
I kept your feet on the ground
My head in the rounds I had you
You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved you
I don’t know how to act or what to say
But I know I am good
I’ll be okay

And you fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
And you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

M_K ™

2009-09-11T22:06:00.003+08:00

fuck it

face it

gurl, he doesnt love you...

baby look at me once more...

tell me u love me again?

please...

i love you is all i want you to say...

M_K ™

2009-09-11T15:10:00.002+08:00

exams are fkin near...
yet i havent start revision
let's nt tok abt revision cuz i hv nth in my head to revise...
haiz...
gnna do very badly and i can forget about going to the class tat i want...
u knw, u'm reali beggin u...
pls stop torturing me, will u?

Broken and Shattered...

he replied me just now...and it spoilt my mood...

maybe, i shouldnt even be in this world...

feel so unwanted...

after all tat i've done for u, this is how u're repaying back?

i nvr did say no...

wateva i do is wrong in ur eyes...

everything is say is very bitter in ur ears...

do u really hate me so much?

then, why nt say so ?

when wil u stop playing with my feelings?

M_K ™

2009-09-10T12:03:00.003+08:00

FCUK YOU !!!

this is wat i meant when i say "IT'S ALL MY FAULT"
EVERYTHING TAT HAPPENS IS MY FAULT...
WATEVA I DO, PPL THINK I'M DOING STH BAD...
WAT'S THEIR PROBLEM SIAL?

fucked it la... i've had enough...

i'm sorry for all the things i've done , and things tat i nvr do...k?
happy?

if u 're still nt happy... i got nth more to say...

my day is fuckingly bad enough...
i dun need u to add on... understand?
since u hate me so much or jealous of wateva shit...
fuck it...
go do wateva u want....
i've nth to say...

and if u want to delete wateva pics from my blog...
go hack into my blog then... and do wateva u want with it? okay?

and pls uh... miss carlyn, dun u know my password?
since u dun wanna see his photos so much... just simply log in with
purpleberryblueberry@gmail.com and the password at blogger and u can happily delete wateva stuff u dun wanna see...

my life is alr screwed up..
i hope u understand why i'm flaring up...
read my previous post...
i've had enough...

once again... I"M SORRY!! K??

M_K ™

2009-09-10T11:21:00.002+08:00

he lied again...
i seriously had enough...
i've said this sentence for fucking lots of time...
i just wan u to answer me why do u haf to lie?
all was just lies...
wateva happened were just illusion...
i wasted my fucking time in dream...
dreaming everyday...
dreaming of the day everthing will be back to normal...
it was useless...
you lie to me everyday...
u claimed u're trying to be nice... but are u? huh?
this is just another fucking lie, right?
when will u stop lying? arent u tired of making up lots of lies everyday?
u say u love me...but this is a lie too, isnt it?
wat do u wan this time? tat u lie u love me?
havent u had enough of torturing me everyday of my life for the past 9 mths?
i'm tired... u've hurt me enough...
u said u've read my blog... but i asked u wat did i write in my blog. u didnt have a clue...
so u lied...
u lied u re very busy tat u're studying..
but werent u infront of ur tv , watching soccer till 4.10 am in the morning, huh?
on tat particular day , u told me u were watching soccer , starting from 12am...
oh wow...
i'm just asking u a small favour ...
u said u'll treat me better, do anything to make me happy..
oh wow...so fucking true huh? all these are lies too, arent they?
it should rather be, you'll treat me worse and do anything to make me sad...???
didnt u promise u'll msg me, u'll give me a msg to read when i wake up...
where is it huh? i msg u lyk fucking lots of time,,, but did u even bother to reply...?
just this morning , how many missed calls are there?
and wat about 7th sept morning...???
how many missed calls u get from me , carlyn and dion?
huh?
u only woke up at 12noon, right??
oh yeah... u were studying...
stop lying, k?
cuz i fuckingly detest liars....

M_K ™

2009-09-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

Dear Maria Christine Khin,
below are your PSYCHOLOGY PERSONALITY test result:
You love the crowd... a party animal! Too many “friends”, you can’t easily tell which among them is real and not...

You’re usually expressive... Open about your emotions and most of the time willing to talk about it.

You love deeply... you may flirt along and people think you’re a playboy/playgirl but the truth is: your heart belongs to only one.You have so many ideas in mind...

You’re creative and aggressive! If you want something, you’ll do anything to get it!You’re an ideal boyfriend/girlfriend...

You don’t care if your partner doesn’t really love you as long as you love him/her. You give your all...

You’re undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to approach you because they know you will consider them.

You love actions... with the hero-like taste! You focus on your strengths and use them to protect persons/things that are important to you.

M_K ™

2009-09-09T23:21:00.004+08:00

emergency exit! =)
his special slippers... he exchanged his other side with his fren... dotz!

dunno wat he was doing... but he seems lyk chanting or casting a spell... (=

omg... act CUTE!

we went there on 09/09/09

Reserved Seating... Priority seat...Zzz

i'm hard working! ;D

08/09/09

okay,,,,grrr... there was still a smile on my face...

before i pose this, ppl were making me laugh!!! haha... ppl lyk Wafi, Yue Jie... and many more...haha xD

07/09/09

i "stole" these pictures from damien's blog...

well, those were taken with his phone camera.. =)

we were awesome ppl from the fantastic group!

look at our shopping list! (so budget, i knw)

but werent we awesome? we spent $18.90 where our budget is fcking $19 dollars for 15 mouth to eat... haha..

all thanks to Prabu!! (my mentor, okay?)

M_K ™

2009-09-09T23:20:00.002+08:00

2009-09-09T23:20:00.001+08:00

2009-09-09T23:09:00.000+08:00

2009-09-09T22:49:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG...
so much to post! i was away for 2days.
the camp was a torture.
but it was FUN!
F-5 haha... Fantastic 5! You guys are AWESOME!!
i'm totally nt in the mood to write about the camp cox it's fucking retarded...
haha, but u can find wat happened during those two days at damien's blog. =)
http://drag-you-out.blogspot.com/
he pratically sumarize everything... so yeah...
may be , i'll write next tym... =)

today...which is 9th september 2009, which is 09/09/09
suppose to study, but ended up going out with kc, wei jun and his gf, jamie!
eat at kfc... (omg...fats! but i will say nvm, i lost 1.5kg during camp)
watch ailens in the attic... haha... nice show but the last part was kinda ridiculous? =\
then...went to church... for sth, just for a while. cux i coulnt go ytd...
then,,, kc suggested train to joo koon...
and yes, we trained to joo koon...
but we were "fined" cox we didnt tap out ,,, so we "overstay"... fucked!
2 bucks!...
take 358 home... =)
i promise myself, tmr the whole day, i'm nt using com and study the whole day...
haiz...
if only i can concentrate...
whenever i cant concentrate, honestly, i hate you more and more...
you really turned my life up side down... ='(

M_K ™

life is awesome!

2009-09-06T14:24:00.003+08:00

feeling fucking down now..
i dunno why...
tmr gt camp... =)
i feel happy now
fuck those mood swings...
i'm loving everyday in sch...
life is just simply awesome...
haha... dun get jealous uh...

oh, and yes...fuck u la ralph, nvr tell me whoeva is there at the foodcourt..
i feel damn pai seh, u know? fuck!

ohmygod.. i wanna know who is tat senior... blah blah..
"hey girl...my fren say u're damn hot"
wateva...
i acted blur...alright?
haha ...either sec 5 or sec 4...but i've nvr seen them ard b4.
i met spencer yesterday...
i THANKED him in person for helping me open the door on easter vigil...
haha...
see, i'm a very grateful person... =p Crap!

kk,, final sentense b4 i makan..
"life is awesome" (hehe, without u!)

M_K ™

2009-09-06T13:20:00.002+08:00

haha. admit it.
i always screw up the morning prayer... right right??

"lead us into temptation" wth...
i think i'm gonna have phobia with this Lord's Prayer...
oops...
k, only teachers noticed it... (cox they're the only one listening...) duh!

M_K ™

2009-09-05T11:46:00.006+08:00

Before you start, tag 15 people.

Now start.I have... (add point for each one)

Exm:1+2+3..

1. smoked.

2. consumed alcohol.

3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.

4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.

5. kissed someone of the same sex.

6. had sex.

7. had someone in your room other than family.

8. watched porn.

9. bought porn.

10. tried drugs.

MY TOTAL SO FAR: 19

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1. taken painkillers.

2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.

3. lied to your parents.

4. lied to a friend.

5. snuck out of the house.

6. done something illegal.

7. felt hurt.

8. hurt someone.

9. wished someone to die.

10. seen someone die.

MY TOTAL SO FAR:40

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1. missed curfew.

2. stayed out all night.

3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.

4. been to a therapist.

7. received a ticket.

5. been to rehab

6. dyed your hair.

8. been in an accident

9. been to a club.

10. been to a bar

MY TOTAL SO FAR: 0 (seriously...i'm nt lying)

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1. been to a wild party.

2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.

3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.

4. had a spring break in Florida.

5. sniffed anything

6. wore black nail polish

7. wore arm bands.

8. wore t-shirts with band names.

9. listened to rap.

10. owned a 50 Cent CD.

MY TOTAL SO FAR:33

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1. dressed gothic

2. dressed girly.

3. dressed punk.

4. dressed grunge.

5. stole something.

6. been too drunk to remember anything.

7. blacked out.

8. fainted.

9. had a crush on a neighbour.

MY TOTAL SO FAR: 17

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1. had a crush on a friend.

2. been to a concert.

3. dry-humped someone.

4. been called a slut.

5. called someone a slut.

6. installed speakers in your car.

7. broken a mirror.

8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.

9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.

MY TOTAL SO FAR:32

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1. consider/considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.

2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.

3. cruised the mall.

4. skipped school.

5. had surgery.

6. had an injury.

7. gone to court.

8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/tipping.

9. caught something on fire.

10. lied about your age.

MY TOTAL SO FAR: 16

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1. owned/rented an apartment/house.

2. broke the law in the police's presence.

3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf.

4. got in trouble with the police.

5. talked to a stranger.

6. hugged a stranger.

7. kissed a stranger.

8. rode in the car with a stranger.

9. been harassed.

10.been verbally harassed.

MY TOTAL SO FAR :33

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1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.

2. stayed online for 5+ hours straight.

3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.

4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.

5. been to a fair.

6. been called a bad influence.

7. drink and drive.

8. prank-called someone.

9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.

10. cheated on a test.

MY TOTAL SO FAR: 48

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If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]

If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]

If You Have more Than 20..write [im average]

If You Have More Than 30..write [im a bad kid]

If You have more than 40..write [im a very bad influence]

If You Have more than 50..write [im a horrible person]

If You Have more than 60..write [i should be in jail]

If You Have more than 70...[i should be dead]

heyy,,, i'm juz a very bad influence... but! carlyn is a horrible person!! haha!!! =8

M_K ™

2009-09-04T14:42:00.003+08:00

heyy...i found this song, "wish i was her", when listening to "I wanted you - Ina". the song tat carlyn intro to me...

Always knew that when we said goodbye,
It wouldn't last forever,
Always thought that
I'd run into you,
And we'd get back together...

Now you're here just like I imagined,
But never once did it cross my mind that you could move on...
You've found someone,It breaks my heart,
Cos you're so in love...

I wish that my touch made you smile just like that,
And I wish that I had you the way that she has.
Cos I still remember the love I left behind,
Oh I wish I was her and you were mine.

I think somebody's trying a talk to me,
But I can't hear a word they're sayin',
All I can do is stare at you,
I don't even know why I'm stayin'.
Never thought I'd cry to see you happy,

Its just I thought that your happiness was right here with me.
I know we're through,It's no use,
Still I can't help but feel...

The way that you hold her I wish that was me,
There's no place on earth that I'd rather be.
Cos I still remember the love I left behind,
Oh I wish I was her and you were mine.

I used to be right beside you.
Now I'm not even kept inside your heart.
I put our love up on a shelf,
But now it's gone cos you belong to someone else...

M_K ™

2009-09-03T22:22:00.002+08:00

that big big needle pricked my fingers...and my lips...

mood right now...

depressed...? feel so down...

M_K ™

2009-09-03T21:53:00.004+08:00

i was playing with my hair during lit...and made this small plaid..
Mrs chen saw, then she asked, "u got pay attention in my lesson anot uh?"
hahaha.. lyk as if i'm interested in ur Drama Queen's lesson...

after in line skating, the emperor, michael... whoeva is he la, the instructor there, drop us at the bus stop near my block...

and jennifer suggested taking some pics...

omg...she's pretty, isnt she?

she wan show off her maths book... =)

i look funny!

omg...i like her dimples!!

should i cut my hair?

someone just spoiled my mood completely...
so i'm nt gonna write anything to do with today, yesterday or abt anything...
cox i'm get so pissed off and start to fill my blog with my frustration again,

well... picture paints a thousand words... so yeah... i 'll just upload pictures...

haiz..

M_K ™

2009-08-31T14:30:00.007+08:00

Yesterday Once More...

Those were the happy times...

and not so long ago...

how i wondered...

Where they'd gone...

All my best memories

Come back clearly to me

Some can even make me cry.

Lookin' back on how it was

As days gone by

And the good times that I had

Makes today seem rather sad

So much has changed.

M_K ™

2009-08-30T19:32:00.005+08:00

I dont think I'm asking too much from you. Just a small favor and yet why cant you help me?
you were the cause of everything. dont you think so? you tell me you love me, but sincerely, do you? those times i asked for break, you were the one unwilling to break. you made me love you so much, so addicted to you, and now you say you wanna leave me. why didnt you accept it when i asked you for break. and now you got the cheek to tell me you actually forget everthing. oh wow. when i try my best to move on and bitterly say i wanna break, you ask me to wait for you till your O's are over. who do you take me for? a fool? you said you would come back to me if i can figure tat fucking thing out. now u tell me you've changed your mind. seriously, when will you stop lying? I'm tired, do you know? i try to be strong, willing to let go everything, then you asked me to wait for you. making me turn my decision opposite way. so wat if i wait? let's say a year has passed. you've finished your O's, we stead again. then we break again, am i right? you would shatter my heart into pieces again, which might has been healed in a year time.
you complained your results aint good. all i could say serve you right. no body forced you to like two girls at one time. Please, for god's sake, i told you from the start, she's up to no good. but do you believe me? she was your world, your everything. now u claimed you hate her. oh wow. who know the next moment you will love her again. arent you the one who told me she's a very best friend, your sister? why such a sudden change, huh? dun complain about your results. you deserve it. i offered my help, u didnt take. well. i'm sure you know i'm revengeful, yes , u will get ur fair share. you screwed up my life. thank you so much for crashing me into pieces. You lied to me. so many times. have you ever spared a thought for me, for my feelings? you did wat u want. i get the blame in the end. if not for you i wont be in this sorry state. think about this, if you hadnt liked her, wat would happen? i would be so much happier. doing well in all my tests. i'm scared, scared of exams. i've never been scared of exams, 'cause i know i would always get top 3 in class. but this year, this streaming year, i'm fucking scared. scared tat i woulnt be able to go to the top class. my maths is killing me. maths is my favourite subject. the subject which i always enjoyed. you're also aware of my consequences if i'm nt eligible for the class i wana go next year. so why are u killing me? my life had turn upside down. once a happy kid, a smiling queen. now somone who slash herself to take away the pain. just for tat time being. thanks uh. i know you stil have your hatred for me cux of watever happened last year. so, you're taking revenge? i guess pretty much so. your kisses, your sweet nothings. well, all were just lies. your promises turn out to be empty promises. oh yes, i wish i've never met you. why did you haf to take my number from carl? why did you haf to introduce yourself to me? oh great, the past is coming back to me again. you made me love you so much. so much so tat you become a part of me. losing you would be cutting off an organ from my body. this is not obsession. you said tat word. you accused me of being obsessed. but would you rather want a girlfren who cares about you than someone who cant even be bothered about wat's happening. who just heck care everything.? who say she loves you. words but no actions? ask yourself this, all right?
i guess these are the things i wanna tell you, talk to you about. but, you know wat happen whenever we chat on the phone. i requested i wanna meet you, so tat i could tell you all these things. but you didnt give me a chance. you tell me off whenever i try to explain something. when you answer my calls, your "hello" alone can turn my mood upside down. i'm afraid of dialling your number. i feel even more scared when the line is going and i could hear the ring tone. seriously, i'm gonna have a phobia of calling you.
I'm tired. tired of everything. i wanna go separate ways. and i dun think i would wanna wait for you. it's not tat i dun love you. it's just tat, you know, i think i wouldnt be me if i were to wait for a guy. you know me, you know me better than anyone else. you know my pride, my ego. i dun chase after guys. my attitude, love me? stay with me. dislike me? fuck off. you know tat too, dont you? I'm feeling very down now. thanks for talking to me for 36min and 44 sec just now. your wasted time was appreciated by me. i find you so inhuman sometimes. you dun care about people's feeling, even though you claim you do. why are you doing this to me? it is cox of wat i did to you last year? but didnt you tell me you'd forgiven me? you said you dun mind. those were lies too? as i said, i'm tired. I'm giving up everything now. Everything.
please know tat you will never see me next year. neither will you see me in the future. so yeah, fat hopes tat i'll wait for you, unless...(i dun haf to type anymore, cux u know wat i'm toking abt)
if i change my mind, you'll be my special guest at my wedding, alright?
hey, remember, i like white roses, not red.
my favourite flower is orchid, not rose. (does this ring a bell? i hope it does. 14th june?)

M_K ™

dreams are dreams, they disappear when you wake up,
so girl, be strong and WAKE UP!

2009-08-29T15:27:00.003+08:00

I vandalized my table...

then, on friday morning, cannot find my table cox the freaking choir ppl messed up the class!!!

was freaking pissed...

was frantically looking around for my table. cox i wrote alot of stuffs on my table. haha.

and alot of lyrics...

facedown, crush(written,( no, vandalize is the right word) by carlyn)

Łם\/Σ Ħüгŧz ™

2009-08-29T14:59:00.004+08:00

THURSDAY!
you are to read "YOUR STUPIDITY IS CONTIGIOUS" on Jen's file!

jennifer took this. "Stolen shot" i didnt know she took . hahaz.

Pretty Jasmine! haha...
hey, we shall go to loyang sec one day, kkies? to find that HOT guy!

i didnt take this pic. i was taking another pic , tats why my hand was extended out.

obviously, jennifer took this. haha.

FRIDAY!

-didnt wanna do Aces Day Training, so i nw nid AN EXCUSE LETTER!!!
see la carlyn, i pei u dun do, then now i nid excuse letter leh... hahaz.. yeah right. i fell down on thursday cox it was raining very heavily...wth

when other ppl are doing that taekwando in the hall, we slack in our PRIVATE TOILET!!

well, ppl say the toilet is haunted and no one actually use the toilet!

the truth is , it is not... so that toilet is the most clean toilet in the whole sch? haha

but... it's a little messy inside with tissue.

carlyn, i think it's time we clean with those mess uh.

cox even the cleaner doesnt visit this toilet...

hahaha.

these pics were taken with Priscilla's Phone! Hey, thank you so much! i'll return to u on monday.

*wink*

=----

ouch.

got a little bump on my forehead...
thx to Bryan Ng and Inah...
grrr...
hmmm...little bump?
let's see, type of wounds, CONTUSION!!
i just had my BFA re-exam , u see...
BFA is fucking easy... but BNCO exam.. oh oh... will i fail?
last nyte, forget to set alarm, i doze off while making a call...
LMAO i knw.

hmmm...wat happen ytd?
first thing aft sch.
-went for catholic fellowship, tat's how i end up with a little bump on my forehead.
Inah and Bryan was snatching the guitar i guess after i return the guitar to bryan/inah.
and dunno who let go, DANG! it falls on my forehead! >,<

-went out with some friends to buy some teachers' day presents.

-ask them follow me go City Hall, Penisula Plaza there, but they dun want! wth la. >,<>

-go city hall, on my way, saw alot of frienS? wth. bryan ong saw me, then he shout my name, i was lyk blur blur... turn behind. then saw him smiling.. k, i waved. cox i was rushing.

(havent tell carlyn abt this...hmmm, dunno if she still find hym cute)

-in the lift up to white sand also see one junior... (PS la, dun wan my sch ppl to see me in my outside clothes) then he's lyk , "EHH, AH MA!" ( since wen i become his Ah Ma sia)

-at penisula also see some seniors. i dun know their name though. hahaz

-i do wat i haf to do there. blah blah. transfer money.

-look for evening gowns.

-OMG. i didnt know evening gown will be this expensive sia. if u tailor make, just a very simple will cost you $650! FUCK! u think i can spend this much for Gala dinner uh?

-i think i'll end up renting the gown lor. =(

-next destination for evening gown? i think i will go to orchard or china town next time (after exam bah) (may be with Carlyn)

-wanted to eat dinner with dar. but as usual , he was fucking busy. so, NVM

-had dinner with joe at WS Mac. omg...

it's lyk everyday fastfood.

i'm turning into a pig. seriously! i lost a kg last week, but i think now i gain 2 kg liao... but hey!, nvm, i got Yogurt !!haha!!! =P

this morning , woke up at 7.35am

and suppose to meet Jocelyn at 8.15

at first i thought i 'm meeting everyone there. but turn out only jocelyn

jennifer and jia jing met at 7.45am at pasir ris Mrt. wow. siao ah, so early.

lol. cux they guai guai, wanna study before the exam. lalala

rush eveything.

i bath in 5 min today. (WOW)

waited for bus lyk 10 min! (FUCK! I"M LATE!)

reach WS at 8.20am

breakfast bought from old changi... sianz...

after the test, we played Tai di. ( dunno if i spelt correctly)

i keep on winnin for dunno how many rounds... but my luck turn bad sia.

i had lyk three card of 2s for two rounds, three cards of Ace for two round, then the good luck passed to Shawn, then to Ryan.

Ryan cheater bug la. everytime wanna flush..but purposely put wrong cards.

ugh,.. tired tired. gonna sleep now..

may be nt going to church.

tmr then go la. sianz.

*yawn*

M_K ™

2009-08-27T17:20:00.002+08:00

DAMN THE RAIN!!!

grrr... skating was cancelled cox of tat stupid rain!!
GRRR...
but we had fun at KFC , didnt we?
haha...
omg.. those boys from loyang sec...
jasmine!!! he's HOT!!! right right???
but as u said, "too bad, i'm attached."
lawls.
but who CARES?
Jas just smsed me, lols.
"if theres a nx time to see him"
wth... go his skul find hym la. easy peasy.
lyk as if we will rmbr sia? =)
watever is it,
jeniffer say, he keep looking at jasmine's direction.. =)
of cox, jas pretty wat! =P
after eating lunch, went to MRT to top up ez link
then...went back to KFC, hoping tat the guys are still there...
silly us!
we went to guardian , and jennifer used the make up foundation and cover up the scar on Jas's hand
she helped me for my freshly made scar too.
but my scar is too "fresh" so i thnk the foundation make it worse..
then then,, we went inside the KFC to wash my hand off the foundation.
that's when we found out that the guys had alrdy left.
>,<
they muz left when we were at MRT.
dang!
so wasted.
hahaz.
but it was fun!
aiya, but sad la... today no skating plus cannot mit dar oso.
FUCK!
suppose to mit hym today? but he got TUITION...
his lyf is full of TUITIONS la.
grrr...
oh dear, am i gnna haf alot of tuitions like him next year
I HOPE NOT!!

M_K ™

2009-08-26T16:32:00.006+08:00

bleah bleahhh,,,

CARLYN!!!

you cant blame me... hee...

it's he dun wan tok to mii!!!

=P

diff ppl tell me y he dun wanna tok me can
dyl: he find you ODD la and irritating!
his brother: my bro doesnt wan to talk to you cox you're emo..
he's a happy person, EMO!
grrr... i forget wat carlyn told me and wat he told me... >,<>who cares! haha!

"yogurt will help u lose weight."
hmmmm, so true.
i lost 1 kg. haha! =P

ah la, dunno y i wanna tok abt him again
k, his brother looks better than him?
haha! CUTE!
no offence?
blah blah.
he's quiet, carlyn's quiet.
so pratically, just now it was very boring.
i swear i wont tok to him, but since the conversation was too dry, i was lyk asking them to TALK!!!
he was on the phone.
carlyn was on the phone.
wth.
oh yeah , he's nt replying again? cox i said one of his fren is cute?
wat's the prob with guys la.
take this kind of thing also so serious. >,<
pls la, we say guys cute, doesnt mean we like them lor.
anyway, i showed him my BNOC course notes, which i drew his name on..
two weeks ago...
wth..
he complained complained...
complained to dylan tat i this i tat..
then after he got the cheek to tell me tat he did not complain... he jus said i hv alot of mood swings.
it's lyk , WAT THE HELL LA. since from the start, i fcukin tell u , i got alot of mood swings. right?
>,<
then blow up this matter for wat sial?
make ppl's life miserable onli!!!
haha FULLSTOP. ENOUGH .

haha now let's talk about KC!
hey you! i'm nt telling wat school Mrs Pereira is in!!
all i could say is AGPS, in sengkang
go find out yourself la.
yah yah. AGPS = Ah Gong Pai Seh
haha he's a real joker
can crack joke under any circumstances.
omg... i try to crack joke too, but MINE are lame. or not funny?
cox ppl dun find it funny...
lalala. =))))
oh yeah, Koon Chew ask me to post here that he said, "HI!!!"
=P

To my Kor : sorri! i cant meet u today after sch... cox i haf to accompany my "sister"

haiz.

---------------

i love ytd man!! only the afternoon!! and evening!!

haha..

i cant believe Mdm Tan would actually say tat sia..

during DnT, i went to the toilet...

come out the toilet, saw Mdm Tan, so i just say, hi mdm tan

she smile back and she said sth, and i blushed!!

omg.. but seriously la, am i really meh?

then walking back to DnT room, dunno those guys shout my name from their class room...

i dun even know them? but they know my name and ask me for my full name...

right. i'll show u my FULL name the next time i see u guys...
from then onwards, my mood changed? lols.
no la, its just usual, cox of CCA.
was lyk damn hyper when changing with jennifer.
was lyk dancing in the toilet? haha.
tat costnerr kip on sayin my name, then i hit him on his head! ouch!
then syah try to trip me so tat i'll fall down..
AH HA HA HA...
pls la.
=)played captain balls ... omg... this is lyk the first time in the whole year tat we played during CCA.
but jennifer and i got separated. GRRR...
damn those ncos.
heh, but the game was FUN.
Jacob is another Ryan.
haha.

oh well, i was so determined to do sth.
but later at night, sth happen
my whole mood just totally changed!
wtf.
why cant i be strong sial?
then today the whole day, feel very down.
since morning.
when going inside the classroom, carlyn even ask me , maria u ok?
i'm NOT.
today bad luck la.
this time head PRefect caught me for "gutter"
dunno la... cox of the string i put at my shirt.
so wateva!!
>,<
then JJ , catch my socks!
but lucky this time not earings again!
my ear hole bleed today when trying to change earing.
suckish!
i cant pierce another hole next week...
haha, giving my beloved carlyn more time la. =P

M_K ™

2009-08-25T14:17:00.000+08:00

2009-08-24T17:20:00.007+08:00

I LOVE POOH BEARS!!!

when i used to a year younger...

looking back... at the memories...
ytd...i dunno why, everything came back to my mind..

Memories r lyk a piece of exquisite glass,
dey r beautiful, fragile yet dangerous.
wen u break it, it will shatter into pieces
n evry slice of d glass,
which was eva so beautiful mins ago
will turn into sharp baldes tat
cut your skin.

-------

ugh,,,

it was fun in school? no la,

freaking cold!!

it's lyk, shuld i bring extra jacket's tmr??

talkin abt jacket, freddy stain my white jacket with his grapes juice...blaehh...it's jus a drop i know...but it's super hard to come out la.

i cant even use normal detergent... gonna use bleach on it..

grrr...

and and,,, carlyn was lyk.. "OMG about someone"

blah blah..

carlyn ar, i give him to you la... u go chase aft him JoKE jokE..
=P

bio test was easier than i tot?

i studied so hard on the essay abt water, carbohydrates..but nth come out..

GRRR.. bloddy pissed luh. Humph.

i spent so much time to memorise one leh.

followed carlyn for math supp... cox i dun pay attention during maths class. cox it's Mr Quek's.

i rather draw or write craps..

ohh,,, i need to buy foolscap paper soon! gonna finish very fast... (of cox la, almost everyday write crap)

i prefer Miss Mariana teach maths lor. >,<

she remind me of my primary 6 maths teacher, mrs pereira..

hmmm.. i hope to see her on teacher's day.. but ugh.. haf to go till sengkeng to meet her?

o.O

damien's very mean today. he didnt let me write on him. =(

and bryan lim too...he's lyk staring at me when mdm say, "i dun wanna see sweet drinks bottle in class uh" omg.. pls la, I HELPED to clean up the bottles , right? i didnt even bring in any bottle today luhh.. (guai guai mah)

i realise sth, i'm tokin alot of singlish again.. man..

it's bad, u knw...hahaha...

oh yeah, leon is a meaniie too!! he just wave his hand when i shouted , "HI LEON!"

wth... i'm the one saying HI to you leh,, NOT carlyn ,,,! >,<

so yeah, i agreed with carlyn tat he's a meaniie..

and and and tat gurl in class keep on looking?staring? at me today,,

omg,.

wen i look at her, then she look away.. 3 times in just one period

and in com lab oso..

pls la, it's so damn fucking easy to know whether or not someone is staring at u lorr..

bleah bleahh...

btw, i lost a kg. =]

4 mre kgs to lose and i'll be border line underweight...and my sis cant call me pig or fat anymore..

muah ha ha ha ha.. (she good la, always bully me with this, jux cox she's underweight!)

MY SISTER IS AN IRRITATING FREAK TAT FOLLOW ME IN EVERYTHING I DO!!

dang!!

ohhh.. she just scare me with a slice of pizza..

lame..

M_K ™

2009-08-22T22:27:00.004+08:00

i'm turning into a pig
cuz...
i officially woke up at 11.30am today, after having so many BAD DREAMS,
i slept at 11pm.
bathing and eating breakfast took me 30min.
i started using computer after breakfast, so it was at 12pm
used for 3 ½ hr. then i realised i'm so hungry!
so go eat lunch. watch tv for 1 ¾ hr.

then go sleep.. woke up ard dunno wat tym
talked to carlyn for 2 hours!!
omg
one funny thing, her phone was almost batt flat.
omg.. just now was super funny.after she said, "oh, my battery last for VERY LONG" then the line cut off..=D

then after that use com again.
talked to priscilla on facebook.
and now talking to ralph.
=)

i didnt study a single bit today and TIME IS RUNNING OUT!!

Today's Horoscope:

Too much is going on in your life right now to be
worried about what's going on the lives of others!
If you're going to be even slightly concerned about
anyone else's needs but your own, focus on your partner.
It's all about your inner circle right now --
make sure that you and the person (or persons)
you care the most about in this world are doing well.
Everyone else can take care of themselves.
Your heart needs to be reminded who matters most.

M_K ™

2009-08-22T15:06:00.004+08:00

aiya, ppl think i guai lan, irritating or wateva la
like who cares?
=P

dun wan tok to me dun tok lor.
it's ur mouth anyway, so yeah! hehe=)
you're nt the only "fren" i have
wait a min, does he even consider my fren.?
ytd mr gng go thru abt healthy relationship , plus some friendship thingy..
so, if i were to analysis it, he's just a acquaintance! (did i spell correctly)
or a mere fren. yeah.

oh btw, sorri syah..
practially, i'm grounded at home.
!!!!

ugh..freak! monday got modular test!
enzymes and nutrients...
bleahh...
enzymes is a easy topic.

yo peeps! when u msg me, tell me who u r first, kk?
monday is so gonna be fun cox there'll be dismissal duty. hopefully?
haha.
and i'm exampted from duties till next friday! yay!!
but still i like to boss around mah, this one cant help it one.
oh wait, if there're assemblies? does tat mean no more staggard recess??
omg... then the probei can do duty with the mentors alr... =D
monday will be a busy day.... meeting with the ICs in the morning.
tuesday will be a tiring day... Footdrill, but honestly la, i agree with jeniffer too, I LOVE FOOTDRILL, even though it's damn fuking tiring.
wednesday, a sleepy day la
thursday is the most boring day cox all the lessons last for one hour
friday, slackest day of the week. =P

omg...
i just realise i'm fcuking hungry now! =O
i havent eat lunch yet...
0=
but nvm, my sis cooking lunch alr...
hahaz.
man, need to study liao. aft my lunch of cox.
then later in the evening. GO SHOPPING!!
=)
no going church today.
cox i know dylan wont wanna see me
so i'm doing him a favour, u see?
haha.
i'm random. a lillte weird at times.
can be damn hyper, damn emo.

M_K ™

2009-08-22T13:33:00.004+08:00

listened to this song from Zhi Hong's phone..

Na Na Na Na?

Its been so long

That I havent seen your face

Im tryin be stong

But the strenghth I have is washing away

It wont be long

Before I get you by my side

And just hold you, tease you, sqeeze you

Tell you whats been on my mind

I wanna make up right now (na na)

Wish we never broke up right now (na na)

We need to link up right now (na na)

I wanna make up right now (na na)

Wish we never broke up right now (na na)

We need to link up right now (na na)

Girl I know (know, know)

Mistakes were made between us two

And we show (show)

Our acts that night, even said some things werent true.

Why'd you go? (go)

I havent seen my girl since then (then)

Why cant it be that way it was?

Cause you were my homie, lover, and friend

(chorous)

I cant lie (I miss you much)

Watching everyday that goes by (I miss you much)

til I get you back im gonna try (yes, I miss you much)

you are the apple of my eye (girl, I miss you much, I miss you much)

I cant lie (I miss you much)

Watching everyday that goes by (I miss you much)

til I get you back im gonna try (yes, I miss you much)

you are the apple of my eye (girl, I miss you much, I miss you much)

(chorous)

want you to fly with me (want you to fly)

I miss how you lie with me (miss how you lie)

Just wish you could dine with me (wish you could dine with me)

The one that'll grind with me (said, that that'll grind with me)

I want you to fly with me (want you to fly)

I miss how you lie with me (Oh, miss how you lie)

Just wish you could dine with me (wish you could dine)

The one that'll grind with me (Oh, one that'll grind) Yeah!

(chorous)

hey zhi hong, thanks for letting me use ur phone to msg... and oh yes, SPAM.. hahaz..

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why am i feeling this way?
why is it so hard?
problems after problems
oh god, how do u expect a fifteen years old girl to face these challenges?
guys are heartless
i had alot of bad dreams last night, and this morning
dar was at her house..
he frenched with her for six times..
i confronted him in my dreams? he said yes
this morning when i called him and ask him abt tat, he kept quiet...
silence means consent? yeah?
man... i'm going insane.
SA2 in just 1 month? i'm like still sleeping during lessons...
die die...
damn stress...
S-T-R-E-S-S
dun even know where to start from...
how i wish he'll just listen to wat i haf to say...
suppose to be studying now...but cant concentrate, so just come here and vent my frustration here.
having a blog is good? hey, no.
lols.
i miss my primary school days... dotz dotz dotz
so carefree. no misunderstanding watsoeva.
those days wont come back. nver.
it's the same as the days i spent with him. they're nt coming back.
i miss those days in last december. we talked for long hour. till lyk 3 or 4 am in the morning.
i still remember the time i get caught talking so late. and how i lied to my aunt.
but obviously she knew i was crapping. but i guess she was so sleepy to scold me on the spot, and the next day, she forget everything. may be she think she was just dreaming.
i remember those time where we discuss about "emo ppl"
oh boy, i detest "emo ppl' last year. but little did i know, i would become one myself.
and why did bryan lim have to rub more salt into my fcukin wound.
his reason, "so tat u 'll become stronger and will learn'
wth. i'm fucking sad alr la.
but anyway, thanks for that " lecturing". telling me tat everything happened is MY FAULT cox i allow them to happen to me... oh wow. his way of comforting ppl huh?
yeah, all my fault.
my life is in total mess. dun even know wat to do. feeling so lost.
i tot my luck is getting good again and that everything is going back to normal.
but i was wrong. in fact, things are going worse as days go by.
fuck la. wat haf i done to deserve this la?
sometimes, i feel like giving up. dar, i'm tired. of waiting. today is 22nd Aug.
i've waited for 1 mth & 3 days.
i feel like, shouting at the sky, "hey you! big guy up there, i'm raising up my both hands and giving up everything, u happy now?!"
wat's happening to me?
i was the girl who dun give up easily, who has high self-esteem. who cares abt her pride and ego
who dun beg ppl. who'd this heck care attitude. who's so confident. who's nt scared of stage. who used to say, "omg! i love being on stage! i love mic!" but ... now i'm nt someone i used to be.
i dun even know wat i am going to do next monday. the sch will be assembling in the parade square. which means, morning prayer has to be done in front of the whole sch.
sheryl did morning prayer ytd (friday) so next mon, i'll be the one saying morning prayer in front of the whole SCHOOl. noooooooo... i dun haf the courage anymore.
he give me the strength i needed. but he's no longer there.
i feel lyk apart of me is missing.
hey Missy, thanks for everything huh.
in not for u, i wont be in this sorry state. if u see this carefully, all the problems started out from there.
and i really thank you so much for this. i'm sure u can feel my hatred for u now.
u sucks. u screwed up my life.
i hate u to the core.
u just wait till i take revenge.
some things has havent change.
i'm still as revengeful as i used to be. u just wait.
i feel sad, depressed, revengeful, agitated, angry,
thanks jennifer for thursday. i was damn agitated.but somehow she cool me down.
oh yeah, i'm still as inpatience as ever.
i may nt be as pretty as i used to be cox i frown so much nowadays.
but when i walk down the streets, there's still guys who stare at me.
hey you, you guys brighten up my day man.
haha, so sorry, my number is private? wait till i get another phone and i'll give you my other numbers. ah haha.
i guess it's time i become more social again.
i've been locking up myself. i think it's time i should stop.
i promise myself. i'll be myself again.
someone, who has confidence, who is thick skin. (lyk asking some old man for the time on thurs cox jennifer dared me to) =P thick skin good wat... , like carlyn, no pimple!
talking abt pimple,
to Mr somone, on thurs when i say i wanted to see you, i know u wouldnt come.
cox actually i also dun wan u to come, cox of this pimple on my right cheek.
even though i hate pimples, i somehow love pimples, hahaz.
cox, jennifer cant pinch my cheek! jocelyn and jasmine also ."shoo shoo ! i got pimples. dun pinch my cheek!"
hey, jasmine chio bu. i'll take picture with you one day. haha.
i'll be the cheerful girl tat i used to be (of course with the help of priscilla)
she rocks! miss sunshine, i love you!!
no more suicidal thoughts? no more slashing?
slashing cant stop la. it's lyk damn addicted.
wen i quarrel with dar, i'll confrim slash de.
this is something i cant change.
leadership camp is coming soon. this is where i can show the world who i am? haha.
i guess i'm in fucking good mood now. is it cox of the music i'm listening to? may be.
=)
i'll be strong once more.
why must i let ppl affect me? as bryan said, i allow ppl hurt me. =)
no way, right?
i'll be the smiling queen once more. like primary school days. haha.
teachers' day coming soon.
so sad, this year cant buy any present cuz i'm fucking broke.
$75 for my phone.
$25.50 for my top up card.
$28 for my stupid sis top up card.
$50 to be returned to my bank acct.
omg. $178.50
there goes all my saving.. fuck la
stupid phone.
=/
oh boy, i'm lyk so random right now. but who cares?
girls are overly bitchy? someone said this ytd when i was talking to her on msn.
gossip gossip.
wat i can say is, gossip lor. should i be thankful tat there're ppl who actually take notice of me?
lols. this is lame . but yeah. like this joke i used to share with one of my good friend. "HOT TOPIC! YEAH!" she was a good and a hot bytch. but sad she's gone. migrated to Landon.
rachel is her name.
she taught me lots of things. how to handle guys. she was a great help last year.
but rachel, i miss you! i'm in a damn fucked up situation now.
how i just wish you're here to advise me again.
our favourite song, "when i grow up by PCD"
"hey, jealous huh?" her favourite line. grrr
she is the one who made me realised that i've split personality..
haha.
oh yeah. i'm still trying out sth. instant mood change. =)

M_K ™

2009-08-21T21:18:00.004+08:00

we went out on wed for art project videos.
my fucking phone started giving me prob. >,<
sianz...
thanks shawn for lending me ur CYBERSHOT phone to take videos.
credits: Shawn Neo, Douglas, and shawn's fren
sorri i forgot ur name again. so sorry all i know is, the guy tat likes celine before.. so yeah =(
i m sure my beloved carlyn enjoyed tat afternoon!!!
cox she actualli did NOTHING plus she got to enjoy tym with her you know who.
Jia You!! hahaz...
remember uh, 6 letters word lols.

tuck in ur shirt la shawn!

M_K ™

2009-08-21T20:46:00.003+08:00

To: someone

You know something, i think it would have been better if you did not talk to me at all.
I appreciated your care and concern. I did not want things to turn out this way either.
I was so happy when you actually told me that you would help me with my study. I did not expect this from you of course. Not from someone who dislike me so much last time.
I'm sure you know what i mean. =) you used to insult me a lot, so much so tat i end up getting counselled by my history teacher. Seriously and i can swear to god, i never like you. Carlyn and I can think tat your name is cool, but that doesnt mean i like you. Carlyn like your first and middle name while i like your surname. That's all and nothing else. Well, you have such a cool surname! =) Please dont get the wrong idea when i asked to meet us on thursday. it was not because of what you think. I just thought i could concentrate on studying if you're around me.
You know, I'm just like this. I realise i could concentrate if certain person is beside me. but of course i dont know if you will be that person. Like, last thursday, i actually studied on the bus and at the bus stop while dylan was beside me. I dont know why but things seem to go inside my head and i could actually remember what i studied the next day, and i got 19/25 for my biology test. Quite an achivement huh? I can study Physics and put things in my head when Syah is beside me. haha. Well, I'M JUST WEIRD!!
Anyway, I'm really sorry about EVERYTHING.
I'm also sorry for the things I may not have done, all right?
Carlyn was trying to help, i know. but i guess she made the matter become worse.
###((beloved, listen good here, i'm nt putting any blame on you , k? i know u meant well, but u know things just get out of hand))

Haiz... I just wish you would still talk to me... I actually enjoyed talking to ya.
those days, like for 2 days, i was in good mood i must admit.
you can check with dylan for this.
when i talk to him during tat period, i was laughing and talking very happily for the whole conversation.
and oh yes, your name made me and carlyn go crazy! pls la, it's not only us who say ur name is actually cool.
even a guy said tat , OKAY?

there's another thing i need to address, pls ask the brother of yours to stop giving me tat look, as if he's fuckingly not happy with me lyk tat.
i dun mind it for now, but when my limit is reached, dun blame me........so yeah.

p.s. pls tagg my tagbox after you've read this . thank you.

M_K ™

2009-08-21T19:53:00.003+08:00

watched "where got ghost", wif ralph n his frenz..
omg.. so funny...
=D

thx pris for lendin me ur spare phone..
thank you so much!

was in fucking bad mood this morning..
haiz..
i just step inside the sch premises, sherlie and zariel spotted me..
ytd tio wif the head prefect..
today is deputy head and senior vice head..
haiz..

then zariel run after me, ask me why nvr do duty..blah blah blah..
thanks for the enlightenment and giving me one week break.
as i had promised, i'll return..k?
we tok outside our new classroom..

grrr...was in very bad mood in the morning la..
feel lyk screaming at everyone i see..
(and this is why i'm nt doing morning duty cuz i'm afraid i'll juz flare up at slightest things, then ppl think, "wow...wat's wrong with this prefect sia" "onli in the morning, scold scold)
hey guys, sorri for my cold attitude this morning.
well, my mood wasnt just right.
sch as normal.. boring and sleepy..

but today was extremely sleepy (during PSE) cuz i took 4 tablets of panadol last night
wanted to OD.. (when i tell ralph abt dis, he was lyk, "ehh, why nvr call me")
sori la.. it was so late at night..
but tat 4 tabs of panadol do me good in a way oso..
'll haf body ache or leg muscle ache from skating.. but today, i feel so well!
no muscle aching or watsoever..
omg..

this year aces day is lame..
Taekwando? wtf..
at least last year one is better??
hahaz..

M_K ™

2009-08-20T20:07:00.006+08:00

my phone was in coma
and it is officially dead now
sent for repair
the guy there say will cost 75 bucks..
uhhh..
fuck la.
still need to return 50bucks to my bank acct,, cox i borrowed it 2 weeks back, to buy some things from blogshop..and plus my sis's boyfriend's birthday...
haiz..
as i look back at the pictures i took with my phone,, haiz.. i miss you.... sobs...

before i took this pic, i met hym for a while.. haiz.. was so happy then..

u r to look at carlyn's knee!!

dis describe pris! =) i love miss sunshine!

meow~ cats are cute...

i rmbr this one was on my sis's bed..

i took this pic in ard Jan. i still havent wear this blouse until now sia..

whenever i wan wear, my mother will forbid me to wear.. grrr...

during math lessons.. mr quek lessons r boring.. *yawn*

"LOVE HURTS".. i dunno who scolded me when she sees this,

"huh, hw culd u say tat, u still wif ur bf ryte? wa wtf,, ur bf see dis, he's gnna get fucking pissed i tel u"

hahaz..

i'm a barbie girl! in a barbie world! =)

miss my childhood!

i drew this, okay??

yeah, dar, i love you so much.. =x

jennifer took this on the bus ride to SJAB HQ.

haiz..

wth...

feel lyk crying nw?

Mr Muscle Man, Mr Iceberg..

lawls..

hw i wish SA2 finish alr.. there're lots of thing i wanna do,,bt no tym..

damn fucked up.

M_K ™

2009-08-19T12:09:00.002+08:00

OMG..
I'VE BEEN SPELILNG ZACHARY WRONGLY

ALL THESE WHILE I SPELT ZACHARY AS ZACHERY!!
OMG..

AND JUST NOW I FOUND OUT THE CORRECT SPELLING
GRR..
ZA-CHA-RY
ZA-CHE-RY

BUT ZACHERY LOOKS NICER THAN ZACHARY!>.<
EVEN CARLYN SAES SO...

i'm very weird nowadays??
today carlyn was lyk keep on asking, "maria, u okay?"
i tell u wat, i'm NOT okay..
hahaz
and my phone keep on givin me prob..
sianz..
cannot msg ppl..
grrr...

M_K ™

2009-08-19T11:56:00.002+08:00

wat to do?
i'm going insane..

"cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself tat it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you

do u feel lyk a man
when u push her ard
do u feel better now
as she falls to the ground

well i'll tell you my fren
one day this world's gonna end
as your lies crumble down
a new life she has found"

i'm stupid..
why did i haf to bring up tat subject to him
omg. i'm so sorry

and dar, regarding the mess tat i'm in..
i knw she's behind this , k?
i'm doing or saying anything just for you sake..
i'm nt steppin up to authority...and u knw the reason why..
i've done alot for u yet.. u still treat me very cold..

haf i ever turn u down whenever u ask me for sth?
haiz..

M_K ™

2009-08-18T21:22:00.004+08:00

OH..FCUK..
THERE'S STH WRONG WITH ME??
HEYY,, NOOOO!!!!!!

first thing first,
i wanna quit prefect..
i find no meaning??

grrr...carlyn said i "bullying" dylan..
wth.. it should be the other way round ryte nt?
i dunno why and i cant even understand why i am doing this..
omg.. nuts!

i drew this during maths? if i'm nt wrong.. before i read teenage...
omg.. why am i doing this?

[there used to be a picture here..]

during BNCO lesson.. it was so boring, so yeah..

[there used to be a picture here..]

why am i even drawing his name?

[there used to be a picture here..]

seriously, i'm scared!cox there's sth realli wrong with me.

haiz,.
ralph, i hope u understand wat i m tryin to say..
YOU SERIOUSLY ARE NOT GONNA SUMMIT TAT FORM, UNDERSTAND?
never!!!!
dun only think abt ur parents, think abt ur friends too, k?
=/

omg.. i'm randomly listening to The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus songs..
and youtube is playing, "Guardian Angel"
FUCK!! NOOO!! it makes me remember the past...

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

M_K ™

2009-08-17T18:59:00.005+08:00

CME project..
PEACE!!!

Design 2 - cute right? i draw one..

Design 1

Elija.. blur...

Carlyn!! lawls..

she say dun post this pic.. but i think elija looks good in this pic.. so,, i decided to post??

*laugh*

camera shy...

Do you feel like a man

When you push her around?

Do you feel better now

As she falls to the ground?

Well I'll tell you my friend,

One day this world's going to end

As your lies crumble down,

A new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect

Every action in this world will bear a consequence
...

omg.. the lyrics are still in my head..

all thanks to sat?

i miss saturday... haiz..

everything ard me is very weird..

VERY VERY WEIRD..

during PD, played soccer cux i was very bored..

OMG..

how in the world Rachel know me second name!!??

Rachel.., nt his real name la..

but i call him rachel..

grr...lazy to post..

bbye!~

M_K ™

2009-08-17T09:41:00.001+08:00

I LOVE CARLYN!!

M_K ™

2009-08-16T20:28:00.003+08:00

PEOPLE I NEED TO APOLOGIZE..

*Desmond Kor..
sorry kor.. lately , i've been very tired.. physically and mentally..
when i get out of this shit, i promise i come play bball with u at elias, k?
this is a promise,,, alryte?

*Carlyn
sorry my beloved.. i myself am in alot of fcuking shit..
i cant help u right now..
i'm sorri.. anyway, wish u gd luck with kc.. or with regi.

*Ralph
hey, i;m so sorry.. dun call me and ask me why i said this..
gerald told me sth.. and i feel damn bad.. omg..
really... that wasnt my intention la..

*Chin
sorry,, i lost ur pencil case...
but i didnt lose the beer.. =P

PEOPLE I NEED TO THANK..

*Christian
hey thanks..
thanks for ur concern

*Zac Desker...
uhm...thank you? haha.. i tot u gnna insult me again..
thanks for ur concern..

*Gerald
thanks uh.. for calling me stupid and idiotic..
but seriously, u made me realised alot of things..
i 'm gnna listen to you la..
but there;s one thing i'm nt gnna listen.
i'm NOT breakin up with dylan..
thanks for ur accompany ytd..
i feel happy when u r ard..
thanks for lettin me rest on ur lap in the studio..

*Ralph
hey,, thanks for everything..
u've been the greatest help.. when i need you, u are always there..
i dun even know how to repay u..
once again, thank you..

*Carlyn
hey beloved..thanks for teaching me how to slash..
last time i didnt haf the courage to slash..
but now i do..
=)

* there;re alot more ppl to thank..
but i gtg now..
sorry..
=(

M_K ™

2009-08-16T19:46:00.003+08:00

baby..look at me..
i miss u so much..
i knw for u it's nth..
but it means alot to me , alright?
how long more do i have to wait.
how long more>?
my fuckin SA2 in 6 weeks time.
havent start revision yet
i'm waving bye bye to class 3E1 next year
i would end up in 3N1 . i guess
just tell me wat exactly you wan..
why cant u?
i'm tired..
tired of waiting..
well...tired of living..
i;m tempted to slash again..but i;m scared of scars..
it will make my hand ugly..
looking for that freaking pins.. i still cant find them..
fuck.. until then i cant slash...

feelin lost ... lonely..
two words to describe my life right now.. "fucked up"

why muz u be so cruel?
i've waited for fcuking 28 days ..
almost a month la,,
how long more u want me to wait..
will u only be happy when i do very badly for my SA2 cox of this..???
fuck la..

ytd, was at jamming studio..

still remember the song,, "face down"

nice song..

gerald sing...

the lyrics still in my head...

very sleepy...but cant sleep there, cox it was damn noisy..

dillion looks funny with his new hair cut..

hahaz..

he only said, "hi" to me..

wth..

i'm stupid, aint i?

oh yeah.. i'm a idiot too..

wateva...

faith??

have faith in ur self??

lawls..

btw, nice tattoo..

but u were damn scared tat time huh??

grab my hand too tight..

ur fingers were fucking cold..

wow..

didnt know tattooing will hurt so much...

cox looking at the guy getting serious tattoos, he was nt in pain at all..

i wonder hw ppl can take this pain..

well.. this is physical pain.. of cox can take it..

nt emotional pain wat, ryte?

saw spancer ytd,,

wanted to go to him and say, "hey dude, thanks ah, for helping me open the staircase D door on easter vigil mass. if nt for u , i would haf to walk one big round to go up to the third floor.."haha

bt i didnt la..

psps

M_K ™

2009-08-15T22:30:00.002+08:00

i found out who is aldren today.
whose number i saved.
he said he dun prank me, but someone used his number to prank me before..haha

omg..matthew.. i didnt know u smoke b4..
i was lyk damn surprised!.. i tot u were good boy..
hey hey, dun influenced zhi hong..

gerald is brutally honest!
=)
stupid? idiot? wat's next uh? >,<
but he's funny.
and oh yes, he's handsome?
i really hate those things he asked me... lyk wth?

ralph, poor thing..
u get it for nth. all cox of spancer or darian..
pity u sial.
anyway, thanks for helpin me all this while.

i tot my ears gonna burst inside the jamming studio..
and oh, i asked matthew to help me carry my shirts in his bag..
in the end, i forget to take..
so from TM , i rushed back to Jamming studio..
just to find out on the way tat he'd left.
and he was at TM..
wtf..
so i rushed back to TM again..
now my legs damn pain sial..
walk there walk here..
sianz.

dar, i;m nt gonna suicide la.
u think i'll wanna suicide when gerald is ard me?
lawls..

damn tired..
omg.. i skip mass again..
next week, i seriously must go for mass..
and go for NOvena too..
well, I'm seriously down on luck sial..
all fingers r pointin at me for things i nvr do?
wat the hell..
why me??
why am i so unlucky..

M_K ™

2009-08-15T21:42:00.002+08:00

omg..
to think of it, things are so ridiculous..
who the hell say i like joel sundrum sial?
someone really get the wrong joel man..
but it's true tat i got a crush on joel mathias b4?
but but it was lyk damn fcukin long time ago..
i like him lyk when i was P6.
just before i knew carl. omg.. i still remember tat time.
tat time when carl asked me for stead, he asked me "u sure u dun like joel mathias?"
well, carl was damn cute la..
and pls, tat was in 2007!!??
this thing, u can clarify with carl.. cuz tat time i asked him abt joel mathias..blah blah blah..
-met alot of ppl today..
seriously la, i dun even know ppl from church, how to disturb sial?
and it's lyk, i have nth against Marga.
someone is really using my name to frame me..
and i have 90% suspecsion tat it is herman behind the whole thing.
cox today Nicole's name came out..
it's lyk damn ridiculous, can?
even IF i dun lyk nicole and wanna disturb her, why would i pretend as Marga, ryte?
honestly, i hated nicole when i first find out that she likes dylan and dylan likes her..
this is normal , isnt it? but after talking to her, i'm okay with her wat..
she's such a nice girl.. (haha, no wonder dylan likes her?)
anyway, this thingy is over..
fyi, i dun hate nicole or watsoever..
she's just someone tat i know from dylan, who has a unique surname =)

omg.. i cant believe this is happenin to me sial..
first is, some bastards use my friends' names to spam my blog..
i was lyk damn angry wif my friends when i just read the msges..
wa..now is, ppl use my name to pretend as marga and disturb her friends..
oh fuck..this person is somone tat is from church and knows alot of ppl...and knows me so well..
omg..
some genius sial...
and this is the question from ralph , " who did u offend recently tat the fella so sot with you??"
herman thinks i'm nt happy with nicole?
and since he likes her, he;s trying to impress her ?
so i would conclude, he used my name and create tat damn account and disturb marga..
the question is, why?
cox marga is loud in church and in her school.
so my name will be fucking ruined and i'll haf no where to put my face..
wow.. well done herman.. fantastic!
it's obvious tat he's nt happy with me cox he said , "i'm ungrateful when he helped me"
and he even come scold me on msn..

but seriously, if you guys nt gonna believe me , i have nothing to say..
i 've nth against marga, nvr hated her before, i nvr like anyone tat she dated before.

and oh yes,, thank you gerald, i'm going to ignore everything! haha..
and all the rumours.. they 're just very lame.
i;m nt gonna care abt the marga prob or any other prob until my SA2 is over??
which is 8 mre weeks..
anyway, i only go to church lyk once a week .. so why should i care , ryte?
haha, consider once a week, if i dun follow my family go for mass on Sun.
dang!

M_K ™

2009-08-15T11:57:00.003+08:00

fuck la..
my sis blasting the david archuleta's song..
damn!!
*Crush*
ytd was really screwed..
grrr...
u see la, cox of ur bloody T*****, i was late for mass!! for fcukin 30 min..
u tell ur mum u gonna buy clothes at penisula.. but wat did u do huh?
fcuk la..

the song my sis blastin right now *touch my hand*

i tot everything was going back to normal..
but i was wrong..
things are going to become worse..
i hate the fuckin u
dreams were bad...
and ppl use to say, wat u dream might really come true..

the song my sis blastin right now *barriers*

those songs are really spoilin my mood..
gonna cry very soon..

anyway, looking on the brighter side of the things..
there're still something to thankful for..
*meeting pris was a blessing?
cuz she's miss sunshine..
*tokin to mr choo make me realise some stuff..
he said i'm bright?
lawls..
no lor.. i always sleep during his class de..
gnna fail every of my subjects very soon.
*we changed our seatin in class lyk wat we used to sit..
zhi hong sitting beside me again..
damien infront of me..
lyk tat, it's easier to sleep in class.

thursday, skating..
learning how to scooter.. blah blah..
was very tried..
yet i followed dar to his tuition..
legs fuckin tired... cox haf to stand on the bus for dunno how long
but i love tat moment for abt 2min
tat's wat i am thankful abt thursday..

friday,
nth to be thankful about..
just tat i was fucking screwed..
oh wait. there was sth? i've been to a tattoo shop..
ytd, i was late for both Masses sial..
was late for the Mass in sch also..
wtf..
why do i haf to rush to everywhere i go??

dotz..
dar, i love you..thanks for tokin to me for 30 min 36 sec this morning at 6.36am..
wow.. coincidence? all is 6s and 3s..
well...

M_K ™

2009-08-12T19:57:00.003+08:00

Mon...
went out with meng li and fathiirah
omg..
fathiirah is so pretty!!
she changed alot sial..
i was lyk,, "omg,,this is fathiirah?!!" when i first saw her in the bus..
we watched "UP" ,.. meng li's idea..
cox of tat she had to exchanged it with eatin sushi.. (she dun like to eat raw food) >,<
well, we didnt really wanna watch UP.. (so kiddish!) so yeah..
we made tat deal..
after the movie,, wallk walk ard ... looking for bag..
cant find the design i wan..
so decided to go to bugis..
fathiirah bought a dress..
damn nice..
$25..
wow.. rich kid!!
i bought a bag..
lalala
i dun think i ate sushi as much as the last time... but this time i feel very very full
i guess it was bcox the last time i ate sushi was with dar.. and u know, having someone eating alot in front of you will motivate u to eat more!
hahaz..'
i miss him

( ```
...hmmmm.. who told me tat i nvr post abt my dar alrdy uh?/
damien ryte?
u see now.. i'm writing abt him!! muah ha ha ha ha...=P
```)

mengli ah, she's still the same la..
=)
mu lao hu..
did i spell correctly??
haha..

sad,,, we didnt take neoprints..
~broke~ after eating sushi..
after tat we slacked at the park..
cox ML didnt wanna go home so early,,.
fathiirah was suppose to go out and study,..
but dunno wat happen..hahaz

fathiirah is very very pretty!!

i love her eyes ! especially her eyelashes!! omg.

and and, at one point of time, we were "gossiping?"

and the topic lead to Ian..

we both were lyk, "OMG..IAN IS SO HOT!!!!!!!"

we said out the same time..with same reaction,.,,

but mengli say he looks emo.. =(

but he's still consider hot!! man...

and jonathan grew very very tall!!!!!lll

ard 7plus, met eli and then go home..

blah blah..

and i say again, me and my sis, dun look alike!!

gRRR!!

hmmm...tat's all i wanna write for monday...

M_K ™

2009-08-12T19:43:00.002+08:00

ugh..
very tired..
haiz..
so that black fat ass is nt behind this??
then.. WHO ELSE???!!!!!!!
dang...
my life really screwed up..
ytd heard dar's mum scoldin him..
omg..
and i recorded a part of that scolding..
she's damn fierce..
cox of her, dar's gonna change his mind.. grrr...
fuck la

sori wafi..my mood wasnt right this morning
sori heng kim..i merely smiled at u when u greeted me gd mrning..
to all those ppl who say hi , hello, good morning maria..
i'm sorri..
i was in very bad mood this morning..
the smile was FAKE!!!

i dun feel like posting liao..
grrr...
bye``..

M_K ™

2009-08-09T21:46:00.006+08:00

ouch..
first is Jing Xiang and his friends used Bao Tin and spam my blog
nw, i duno who is usin Damien's name and write crap..
but of cox i knw damien is nt d one..
cox he'd tagg me b4...
and to d person usin damien,
"do u knw tat i cn actuali check ur Subnet Mask and confirm tat u're nt Damien"
and oh, someone is usin my name to disturb ppl whom i dun even knw..
wat cn i do nw? nth, ryte? i dun even knw hw i ended up in dis shit.
it's lyk, i dun even attend cath class, i'm nt even invloved in any church activities, so hw am i to knw ppl from church & disturb them while posin as "someone".
i mean, dis is ridiculous, dun u think?
and i dun understand why they say tat i liked joel b4..
do i even know him?
haf i even talked to him b4?
do i even knw his email address?
and does he even knw me?
do i even knw tat they stead b4?
lyk, if they're referin to another joel, i thnk it's acceptable la..
oh man!
life is crap!
well, in any case, i;m sorri for upsetting u guys..
i jus wish u guys wuld understand tat there's someone behind all these.. sabotagin me..
i googled this email address, " technarian@hotmail.com "
there's nth under this email address..
haiz..
i dun even knw wat i did tat i end up like this..
wth...

anyway, tmr i'm goin out with meng li and siti, and hopefully i'll forget abt all the probs..
but tat is only for a while.. just for the time being.. temporary..
oh fcuk.. i just remembered i hv to clear the mess on my left hand..
if they see them, i die..
they gnna nag at me for sure..
lyk.. " maria, u ah.. blah blah blah.. waste ur time on this fcukin guy.. wat for? " blah blah
i dun wnna get another "counsellin" or "naggin"..
=(

"sad life" my luck is down...
today supposed to go for mass..
i tot my family will go for 12.30pm mass..
so i happily happily take my own sweet time to get up and get out of my room.
i go inside the living room at ard 10.52am..
saw my sis watching tv.. so i asked her, "ehh, where's papa uh?"
and she answered me, "gurl gurl ah, they all go church alrdy la!"
i quickly glanced at the clock.. i tot i see wrong time.. but it was really 10.53, nt even 11am yet..
me, "they go for wat time mass?"
sis, "hw i knw?! they left lyk half an hour ago,, so they going for 11am mass lor!"
me, "wtf.. i was plannin to go mass with them"
sis, "oh, so sad, too bad! *stick out tongue* dun disturb me, i watching tv"

wth,.. dang..
i didnt go church for how long alrdy sial..
omg..
nxt week i really shuld go... and oh yes, i shuld go for novena again..
but lazy la,,'
>,<

M_K ™

2009-08-08T23:17:00.008+08:00

oh hahaha..
ytd, elizabeth was kickin high..
and and ..some guy had a shock of his life..
tat was so hilarious..
she was runnin and kickin high in the air..
and the a corner, a guy just appeared.
lucky his face didnt kena,,
lyk just 3inches away from elizabeth's shoes
....

they should really provide food if they wan ppl to turn up at their course..
no wonder so little ppl turned up.. heh.
it's a small world after all..
i saw my aunt's instructor at my heart saver course!
omg.
when i see tat fatty dark skin old man in the lecture room, i was lyk.. did i see this man somewhere before??
oh yes oh yes.. haha,, i did,.. 3 or 4 years ago at a graduation party!
gosh!
pass the theory test in first attempt.. as well as the practical test..
was pretty easy.. just tat when practisin on the dummy, u'll panic..
boo!
and i pity those guys in GESS sjab..
omg.. am i being very mean now??
GESS.. i didnt know wat skol was that..
lol...
going out with jennifer is so scary!
she jay walk there, jay walk here, jay walking everywhere la
dotz..
can haf heart attack one lor..
hahaz.. but nvm.. she'll do CPR if i confrim cardiac arrest..
but eeewwwww..no.. lesbian!!
i had my branch at 10plus.. so i cant eat my lunch before i went out of the house..
at ard 4plus.. man, was damn hungry..
see la, haf to use up lots of energy on...
"hello hello sir, r u okay? check for breathing, checking for pulse..
one and two and three and four and five,...blah blah.."
we run across the road, where cars are drivin fast!to Mr Bean. to eat sth before the practical test..
we asked the driver to stop the car, so tat we can dash across..
omg....heart racing ..
well..we only had to 7 min to go across the busy road, buy food, come back, and eat mah..
so they cant blame us lor..
wow.. scarly, in the news ah,.. big headline "How Daring! Hai Sing Kids Dashing Across the Road Outside St John Head Quarter" then photos of me, jennifer, shaun and jasper.. omg..
no la.. this wont happen.. i dun think singaporean are so mean lor..
at worst we would only end up in Stomp la.. i guess..
hahaz..
i pity those who nvr go for the course la..
it;s such a waste.. haiz..
u get one cert leh! plus one batch!
u need dunno how many batches to become a nco, u know?
haiz..
and we shuld complain to the skol also .
the bus ride was very bumpy.. plus there;s no air con in the bus..
and wat for hired a veri very big bus (lyk for 40 ppl) when less than ten ppl are going for the course?
ridiculous right?
just hired a small bus with good conditions la..
somemore the stupid bus came late.. but nvm la.. those ppl from GESS haf to wait for us lor.. hahaha..
but..the sir very smart lor.. he drived there comfortably..while we, his cadets haf to suffer inside that bumpy bus..
>,<
but we stil manage to play tites and cheat inside the bus la..

on tuesday, ms thang will hear endless complains!! hahaz..

and oh, this eugene seah from gan eng seng ah, the theory test was so easy also can fail..
careless mistakes i guess
he's the only from the half the class who failed, hello?

omg..i;m brutally honest..
i shouldnt haf said wat i said lor..
sorri jasper..

u knw me.. i didnt mean it when i scold ppl stupid or wat..
and on yea, the word fuck is gnna get me into trouble one day..
i said it out loud infront of one officer..
but he didnt mind..

ralph and chin said the HQ building is HAUNTED!!
lol.
i stayed there once till late hours..but nth happen leh..
hahaz.. the ghost only chase after some stupid boys..hahaz..
and oh yeah.. i was dumb.. i didnt knw the golden mile is just beside!! and there;s Mr Bean, just across the road.. omg.. how dumb..
and pls ah,, dun ever hold a ceggy in front of my frens!.
we slacked at ard block 500plus.. wat block is it again?
omg.. tat place hold alot of memories..
i still remember the first time we get caught there..
someone was so fucking scared tat time la
he was really panicking..
hahaz..
*thinkin abt the past makes me smile*

M_K ™

2009-08-07T22:33:00.002+08:00

omgomg..
i believe wat jennifer told me now!
jennifer!! i saw hariyanto sir at white sand just now!!
at the restaurant! (working)
when i saw him, i was lyk..omg is tat hariyanto sir.. omg..
but i didnt say hi to hym la,.. later he pai seh..hahaz

to my specially loved one:
yeah, rmb i owe u a birthday kiss.
but that's only in end of dec.. ah hahaha! =P
if u tio counsellin in skol, i pei u,k?
so tat u wnt be bored.
i'll tell d counsellor tat i oso slash, then we'll haf d session 2gether & skip lessons!
awesome! (priscilla influenced me this word) hahaz

talking abt pris, i lent her phone today to take these two pic , in the middle of a walk way..

yeah, random.. took pic of my hand.. lawls..

her phone got better camera than me, so i suppose i cn see watever is on my hand..

hahaz..

i guess i;m a bit weird today..

when i've a miss emo and a miss sunshine beside me??

mood swings.. they are suckish!

i cant believe my sis cn learn hw to skate faster than me lor..
>,<
leon, nvr teach me! u see la, nw my sis bullyin me alrdi.. boo-hoo!
lawls..
i'm just being lame. blah blah blah

i found a very good book to read and my eyes were glued to the book just now...

...till someone tempted with icecream!

c'mon, u knw i cant resist it!

i'm lyk eating icecream everyday..

fats fats fats..

but i was surprised when i check my weight the other day

i thought i would be so obese by now..

but actually i lost 1/2 a kg..

omg.. carlyn. is it ur yoghurt??!!

right..hahaz.. i'm gonna take yoghurt everyday!!

tmr muz wake me early to read the notes for heart saver course..
awww,, anyone cn give me mornin call??

lols..but i knw someone wil..

M_K ™

2009-08-07T13:40:00.004+08:00

i tot onli my skirt tio paint..

actually my shirt too.. at the back

RED COLOUR somemore..

hahaz

this is an excuse to buy new sch shirt..

=)
we had banner painting. so yeah...=D

------
my leg pain.. actually it's my ankle..

i so wanna skate now!!

ouch,, my ear pain too.. =(

-------

To Mr Computer Ghost.. or the bisexual human being?..:

yes, as u'd mentioned, ur email address is no longer in my contact list..

(wow!! magic uh??!!)

but i still remember ur email..

irishywishy@hotmail.com

contact me soon..

i'm still wondering how u got hold of that convo..

and hw did u talk to me in facebook without creatin an acct or addin me as ur fren.

u knw, there're alot of WHY!!!s in my mind nw..

wow.. u're one smart ass..

impart me some of ur skills la.

i'll use it for the "service of mankind" and will "help poor souls"

(i;m using ur lines hor... =P)

heyy, nice knowin you.. i'll go back to tagged.com if i hv the time.

but i find "tagged" quite boring.. =<

M_K ™

2009-08-06T20:40:00.002+08:00

saw this pic on carlyn's mac book background..
it's sweet, dun u think?

i cnt believe wat's happenin.

mr computer ghost, kindly pls tell me who u r..

i'm nt tryin to b rude or wat. i really appreciate for the infos..

bt still i think i shuld knw who u r..

=)

M_K ™

2009-08-06T14:12:00.001+08:00

Computer Ghost,,,

tell me who u are la..
it's not as if i;m gonna find you, right?
pls leh?
let's meet up one day??
pretty pls??

M_K ™

2009-08-05T20:34:00.004+08:00

just as i expected, when fallin in, can see those words i carved on my hand..

omg.

after tat followed a long lecture..

dang!

uhmm..
glad to hear about leon and carlyn..
finally leon broke with beatrice..
grrr,,
took him so long to realise..
but leon, i;m still nt happy with your ex hor!
dun forget..
hahaz

omg..thinking abt tat slut,. another slut come to my mind..
oh no! maria,, control control.. dun lose ur temper..
grrr...

seriously, i;m damn mad now..

FUCK YOU LA..

JUST AS I HAD GUESSED, YOU ARE THE MASTER MIND ALL THESE WHILE..

WELL, YOU JUST NEED JUST A LITTLE BRAIN TO REALISE THIS,. uhm?

M_K ™

2009-08-04T22:28:00.000+08:00

omg..
carlyn..

JEALOUSY
jealousy!!

hahaz..

JOKING..

2009-08-03T22:46:00.003+08:00

fcuk..
have i gone too far??
i dunno..
but i got damn pissed with him when he said i pretend??
wat the fuck is his prob sial?
i'm not the fucking anonymous in your precious darling blog la..
pls?
u think i'll waste my fucking time to bother her ah?
i'd rather use this time to go fuck someone, right??
KNN.

you think i'll pity u coz u cry this time??
hell NO!!!

ask you fucking go check the subnet masks to confirm tat it's not me..then you chicken out..
and your stupid girlfren, so dumb..
ask her use her fucking brain and think la..
she dun haf brain is it??
so ... so sad.. too bad then.. she's gonna fail her PSLE>>
man..
damn fucked up..

i duno wat to say about you now..
i considered you as my brother,,...
i used to open up to you alot of things..
but i guess now things haf changed..
just because of wat??
BECAUSE OF YOUR FUCKING GIRLFREN LA...
tell you alrdy she;s no good.. you dun listen..
pls la..
she's a girl,, i'm a girl too.. so i know, okay?.
fuck la..
now i get fucking angry..
i even shouted at you when you're crying..
i was damn mad.. k??

>,<

you seriously had hurt me alot this time..

M_K ™

2009-08-03T22:37:00.009+08:00

FUCK YOU!!

---

THIS IS MY BLOG..

---

I WRITE WHAT I WANT..

---

NOT HAPPY? GO DIE LA..

---

HELLO? MY BLOG LEH?

---

I WILL POST WAT I WANT

---

IN MINE BLOG, RIGHT NOT??

---

KNN..

---

GO LICK HER FCUKING PUSSY LA..SINCE YOU LIKE BEING HER DOG SO MUCH..

NO WONDER PPL DUN LYK YOU..

YOUR FCUKING ATTITUDE ROCKS MY SOCKS, ALL RIGHT???

IT'S LYK .. I ALSO NVR DO ANYTHING TO YOU..

ANYHOW COME ACCUSE ME,, THEN NO APOLOGIES?? WAT THE FUCK LA..

YOU DO STH WRONG, YOU MUST APOLOGIZE, YOU DUNO ARHZ??

YOUR MOTHER NEVER TEACH YOU PROPERLY, IS IT?

M_K ™

2009-08-01T00:21:00.005+08:00

hyper???

emo???

instand mood change???

carlyn lent me her penknife?? or is it i keep for her so tat she wont slash??
feeling so down now..
empty promises,,

gonna slash when i off my comm..
144 hearts .. 94 red, 24 green.. blah blah blah..

ohmygod.. i'm so thankful for mengli..
lucky we 're nt going out tmr..
well.. there;s sth they really should not see..
now i;ve one more week to cover up everyting..
but will my new scar tat i;m gonna make disapper in jus one week??
???
i;m sorri..
sorri= no cure.??
i;ve waited for 13days..
13 fucking days leh..
sunday will be 14days.. which is 2 weeks!!
how long more do i haf to wait..
my life is jus so fucked up..
why cant he understand??

she so damn fuckin pretty meh??
fucking bamboo pole lah...
go dance pole dance .. u slut..
ppl happy with her boifren, jealous arhz??
wat the fuck sial?
wait till retribution comes after you..
i;m a catholic but i guess i muz say i believe in karma..
it;s damn fcuking true.. u jus wait..
bytch.. i wish u die early,,.

someone told me sth today..
may be tat's why dyl is so attracted to her??
maybe.. there;s a 75% chance tat it's true??
cheapo la,, KNN..
go find other guys from st pat la..
why mus be dylan??
why ??
dun haf other boii alrdy meh?

OMG..

JUST THINKING ABOUT HER,,

I"M GETTING DAMN FUCKING PISSED..

chill chill..

M_K ™

2009-07-31T23:26:00.002+08:00

People use to say, "friends are all you need in your life"??

well.. i dunno..
but hey, thanks annette , for making me realise sth today..
i'll try to slash lesser from today onwards..?
"ur body is a temple of God"

today is 31st of July..
how time zooms by! gonna be august in 30 min's time..

dar,.. i miss you.. really..
i'm waitin for ur call now?

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again,
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohh

Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold
And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no, ohh
You're not sorry no no ohh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did - before
You're not sorry, no no ohh

You're not sorry, no no ohh

M_K ™

2009-07-30T14:12:00.001+08:00

the spammers has retired!

2009-07-29T21:50:00.004+08:00

hahaz.. they stop?? lawls...
come on la.. passer bys, anonymous, someguy...

i'm bored without you guys leh..

do u know tat??

lalala.. =P

dar.. i love you so much..
i'm still waiting for tat day..
as u know.. i'm stubborn.. and dun give up easily.. heehee..
sori lor. this one i cant help de..

haiz..

I'm not asking for an explanation..
all i know is that you take me away
and you show me how to fly..

nothing brings me down when you're around
it's like zero gravity
the world just disappers when you're here
it's zero gravity
when things get messed up
you lift my head up
and i get lost in the clouds
there's no sense of time with you and i
it's zero gravity

the ages fade away
till there's no more shades of gray...
you only have to whisper anything at all
you opened up my eyes
you turned my lows to highs
and it's the only way that i know how to fall...

BABY, I MISS YOU!!

```

Bao tin, u owe me a favour..hahaz..

on the way to Tanah Merah..met KC.. lawls..

he was on his way to buy hamsters?? O.o

M_K ™

2009-07-29T21:23:00.003+08:00

i'm sad...
hurt...
devasted..

haiz..

tell me why...
you're so hard to forget
dont remind me
i'm not over it
tell me why
i cant seem to face the truth
i'm just a little too not over you...

memories,
supposed to face
what's wrong with my heart?
shake it off, let it go
didnt think it be this hard
should be strong, moving on
but i see you
sometimes i try to hide
what i feel inside.

and i turn around
you're with her now (i guess u muz b happi nw tat he's wif u )
i just cant figure it out

maybe i regret
everything i said
no way to take it all back...
now i'm on my own (to her: contented now?)
how i let you go
i'll never understand
i'll never understand...

TELL ME WHY!!!

Here we are lying here

it's our last final goodnight.

just because it feels so good

no use pretending we're alright

too many locks...

too many crimes...

too many tears...

too many lie...

too many barriers...

now we're been dragging this whole thing out

but i cant wait any longer

out love's burning down

creeping in the doubt

we're not getting any stronger

i hear you say that we're doing ok.

but baby, i dont think so...

M_K ™

2009-07-28T21:18:00.001+08:00

This song by David Archuleta best describe my feelings now , i guess...

haiz..

A little too not over you..

2009-07-27T20:15:00.003+08:00

PLEASE TAKE A LOOK AT THE

PUSSYCAT DOLLS - WHEN I GROW UP ,

LYRICS...

=p

2009-07-27T09:35:00.001+08:00

THANK YOU FOR YOUR

OVERWHELMING RESPONSES!!

2009-07-26T16:38:00.004+08:00

COMMENT PLEASE??

WE LOOK ALIKE MEH??

my sis is strongly and staunchly objecting tat we look alike.. GRR!!
stupid sister!
=P

we look alike meh?? no ryte??

oh, i love you so...

M_K ™

2009-07-26T15:58:00.003+08:00

omg.. i didnt know blogging is so fun!!
i was lyk laughing my ass off this time.. omg
they are hilarious..

nonymous 2 passerbys, pb, someguy...

thanks for sparing ur time to visit my blog and read all my posts!
hahaz..

Leon Kor Kor,.. u know sth..
when u first opened ur blog, u were lyk asking ppl to tag ur tagbox..
but mine is lyk so spammed with those peeps.. =p
...

=P

i guess now i;m so addicted to blogging liao..
now i haf sth to do when i visit my blog.. - :to read those nonsense!
not jus plainly bloggin.. (no wonder i find bloggin boring last time. ) =x

aiya,, some ppl are jux so humji..
ask them come tok to me face to face also dun dare.. haizyohz..
it's nt lyk i'm gnna eat them up , right??
lawls

..

to passer by: u talked abt me havin a brain..
if u haf one.. pls think , can?
hahaz..

M_K ™

2009-07-25T13:58:00.002+08:00

anonymous, passer by, pb, some guy.

FUCK OFF!!!

or why not write your fucking

beautiful names???!!!

stop being cowards and hide behind

the computer screen..

not happy with me, come talk to me

face to face..

wth..

2009-07-24T19:23:00.004+08:00

there's only one sentence i wanna write today..

MY LIFE IS SO MESSED UP AND

FUCKED UP!

M_K ™

2009-07-23T21:42:00.004+08:00

WAT THE FUCK IS UR PROB??

4th day...
still feeling very uneasy..
very iffy...
some feelings tat cant be explained..
dar.. i'm sorry...

fuck.. geog test- confirm fail..
i studied for the core-periphery so hard..
bt nth from there come out..

i cant concentrate..
C-O-N-C-E-N-T-R-A-T-E..
bcuz of u.. i guesS?
dar... I l-o-v-e y-o-u
it's obvious tat dar was avoidin me??
he told me he's sleepin at home..
he might be at her place for all u know...
haiz,,
miss cummings... future miss singapore..
blah blah blah..

1 thing
2 say
3 words
4 you..

I H-A-T-E Y-O-U!!
fucking spoiler!
S-P-O-I-L-E-R

i'm damn agitated again..
A-G-I-T-A-T-E-D

man.. i;m going insane..
one day, i might end up at IMH..
grr...

to those passer by, pb, anonymous, someguy...
if u haf any fcukin prob wif me, pls come settle face to face..
stop hidin behind ur fcuking computer screen and act lyk a C-O-W-A-R-D!!
do u U-N-D-E-R-S-T-A-N-D??

if u haf no courage,.. jolly well F-U-C-K O-F-F!!

chill chill... i;m damn P-I-S-S-E-D!

anyway,, dar,.. i miss you so much.. esp today.. (thursdays)
=(

M_K ™

2009-07-22T18:07:00.003+08:00

FCUK THIS MISERABLE LIFE

lyf sux without u .. seriously

heard from my beloved mei tat there’re actuali some kapo juniors..
Fuck off la..
It’s none of ur fcukin business can?
I dun nid ur fcukin comments, understnd?
Lyf sux.. really…
I‘ve these unnecessary stress..
Cant I juz fuckin relax?
Cant she juz vanish from this world?
I dun wana live anymre..
I find there’s no meanin in lyf..

supposingly, i'm to study for geog test tmr...
20 pages for tmr test..
but i cant fcukin concentrate..
u are on my mind the whole time..

u were the reason i smile..
u taught me wat's love..
i'll be emo-ing until that day...
waiting for that day to come..
haiz...

M_K ™